BEST THING TO DO IS TO...

Live.

Love.

Laugh.

Try.

Take Chances.

Make Mistakes and Learn from it.

Explore cause in life you need to do things that gets you outside your comfort zone, if you don't then you'll never know what the store might have for you because sometimes we even stop ourselves from doing things that we want to do, even when you win or loose not knowing would be the biggest lost.

Life could be really complicated at times but what makes it more complicated is your decisions, once decided stand by it and face the consequences if you have to.

Never let your Anger eats you cause if that happens you'll be missing one of the life's most EXPENSIVE freedom... the freedom of FORGIVENESS.

So Forgive and Forget and turn back from the past grudges cause there is no really easy way out but accepting the fact that you failed and made mistakes and by accepting the truth it will really set you free.

All of this can only happen if you really know how to LOVE. isn't it that LOVE is the most wonderful thing in this world?

Even if it is your fault or not guys it's never too late to apologize.

So smile cause i love you=)

-joynlazaro

Honey I stay in love with you

Gee, i never thought this would ever happened to me. I am so madly in Love. ha ha! I know I know, I've been like blogging it here for a while huh? crazy, it just started last January, everything happens so fast. now no matter what i do i can't stop but fell in love, haha... I'm just happy cause who would have though that JOYENZ would be like this. i thought i have set and raised my standards in terms of falling in love and that i thought i would be different in a way that i'll be able to handle myself, cause i thought i am wise... ha ha! but i am not. once again i proved myself WRONG. i am crazy man! C-R-A-Z-Y! but i am loving this craziness cause it is making me wiser, stronger and smarter i guess? ha ha! another joke! i mean I've learned that when you love you don't need to set standards or boundaries and that learn to let go when you have to and hold on when it's not yet time to let go and like still go fight for it. Love is all about loving unconditionally and of no boundaries, indeed it is martyrdome. now i understand what Jesus use to tell when he said love one another and love your neighbors MORETHAN yourself and that now I realize why HE offer his life for US on that cross. I know at some point it is different and that we got dissimilar beliefs and explanation about it but that was just my view. you are free to comment if you like. it'll be appreciated but please be kind and leave your name and links if you have. ty.

March 19, 2009

Today- March 20, 2009

Yesterday Vin and I had a fight, again, a big one, that fight took its toll on me and I have had enough. I was really really hurt this time and I just devoured my whole day crying and the fit of my temper was seen by my best friend Norlyn. I was hurt by the fact that He announces to my cousin's friend and folk that I am just his number two, not his girlfriend but is number two! darn fucking horrible word. it kept ringing in my ear. I felt like I was a slut, like I took him in somebody else arms! I felt horrible and devastated. My morale was low and say joke it could be but it's not funny! I wanted to hit him on his face and like poured my anger all out but still I cant. I Love him so much that still, I was able to phone him and talk to him until my madness eats me, I scolded him on the phone while tears was flooding in my eyes, I felt a freaking chilling air and I still have a flu, I am shaking and I turned red. I cried and poured my heart out. I screamed out my lungs. That was a twenty-minute-call. A long madly twenty-minute call.

I was sad, low and quiet the whole remaining hours of the day. Then came the night. He knows how mad i was at him, yet he didn't manage to exert an effort to confront or talk to me. That made me feel more miserable. remember the other day? he just sent me a lovely white roses, i was just so happy that day until this fight. My girl friends were texting me and talking to me and like saying don't worry you can make it, you'll get through it, while some was also madly furious to Vin. Can't blame them, they see how this relationship like turned my world up-side-down and seen how my world revolves around the palm of Vin's hands. I know I was wrong cause I have loved him so much. Too much that I poured and gave it all like all out of love. I really didn't care cause I think that if you love someone you gotta love him as much as you love yourself right? I don't believe in the saying that Loving yourself is the greatest love of all cause that would conflict what the Bible was saying. Yeah Yeah sour -graping, well whatever, I Love the guy so what? I don't regret a thing. I was Hurt and still hurting but I really don't care. I don't give a damn. If I have to I'll do it over and over again. I won't put an end in any of my sentences but I am willing to learn and live my life. hahah! Stupid huh? no, you just don't get it cause you're not in my shoes. once again, stupid hahah!

Then came the 24th hour after the day of the big fight. my phone beeps (beep-beep) but before that my heart was pounding like a banging gong. I was like, shit! what the hell is happening to me? and there he goes... SORRY JOY I DIDN"T MEAN TO HURT YOU, I AM SORRY. I felt a warm tear swallowing my eyes. I begot damned! haha. I smiled and reply to his message and send him a very long one that will make him go crazy, then he replied and I was somehow shocked but it took me to my surprise that he choses mee, again, hahah. crazy, crazy LOVE! and now I have to wait for him till he comes here later and we'll have a talk and starts to clear things up and try to start a new beggining and like do what we think we need to do. Honey I don't know why I Loved you this way, why I Loved you this much because I don't think I need any reason just to love you, cause I know Love is unexplainable., weird, like US. I Love you Honey, come on let's do it, Let's start and make things up.

HONEYVIN GAVE ME ROSES

Yesterday Honey and I had a fight over this unsolved matter with his so-called-ex-girlfriend-thinggy. it was a bit frustrating cause we keep on fighting about the same matter over and over and over again. it was like a hell of a fight through phone but when finally see each other everything starts to fall in its place. it's peaceful again. i was hurting by the fact that he wasn't able to move with his ex still. it was thwarting when he keeps on saying i love you honey but at the back of my mind i know he's also saying i love you to "mahal" (their terms of endearment which is a tagalog vernacular for "love"). well you can't blame me cause he's been sending me wrong text messages when he should have been sending it to HER! i know i know what you were thinking "dumb pathetic". well i don't know what to do until yesterday i decided to call it a quit. i am fed up. i am having had enough. i said to myself "this is it, we're through", enough is enough. so i decided to text him and broke up with him, cause i though he wouldn't even bother winning me back, but i was wrong. this is the second time he hold me back. he said "hon don't do this. not now, notthis way. don't, i know we're having so much hard times but lemme solve this case...just gimme some more time hon ". i was shocked. i cried. i was having bad mood yesterday cause i was tired and restless and being too emotional, and i am sick...i mean i am sick really due of tonsillitis and all i can feel is the pain he has injected right on through my heart, the hurting and the emotions of anger and vengeance. but i was so, still kind, that i manage not to let my rage to eat my soul. i love him so much that i was able to forgive him and understand him even though i know that this is too much of being stupid! after a couple of hour, he arrived here in my house with his might on. we talked. i was crying though i am holding my tears back cause i don't want him to see how fragile i was. but he know me so well that he knew how to comfort me. he know me so well in just a short time. it's like we known each other like since way way back.
Then came now, March 18, 2009. he texted me ten times around 10:30 in the morning asking" hon, are you going out somewhere?" then i replied "hon, how can i? i am sick...why?" then said he "just don't go anywhere...okay?" then ii replied "why what's the matter? are you planning to kidnap me? lolz" then he said "no more questions anymore, just don't go out of the house", "okay, i said" then half an hour past came the delivery man with white roses on his hands...i was surprised and shocked and in love...hahah...i know it was very overwhelming, a bouquet of white roses was delivered in my house. i phoned him and said "hon thank you for the flowers...it was so sweet...i think my sickness was gone" then he said "i hope through that white roses i can cope up with my offenses to you" and he asked if i liked it and i said "what do you mean I LIKE IT? I LOVED IT... yes" then he said "i like white roses ... it symbolizes purity and means a lot to me, giving it to you that my love is sweet and pure., i love you honey" and i said "thank you so much and i love you too." hahah! this is how sweet we could be and madly in love. Alvin, once again thank you for this wonderful memory.

HONEY CO...hope you read this

This not really much of a blog.. it’s more of a letter to a certain person whom i really really wish that HE is going to read this.. yes it is a HE. d(+_\\)b

to you, who helped me move on from life’s sick jokes and love’s crazy games, THANK YOU.. i just hope that it is really you that is worth playing the game with, CAT AND MOUSE. i love it when you ask me if you can LOVE ME DOWN. you always tell me that you hope to get NAKED AND SACRED with me, chances are always thin, that is why i see to it that IT ENDS TONIGHT. but life is still a joke and love is still a game, i still think of AUTUMNS MONOLOGUE but hell, it’s always THE FICTION WE LIVE IN.

you always want to comPROMISE with me, but i only ask to be BLUE AND YELLOW. i NOTE that TO mySELF and you have life to go on, but we like things this way, complicated and just CHASING CARS.

SALTY COFFEE–an amazing love story

He met her at a party. She was so
beautiful, many guys were chasing
after her, while he was so plain and
simple, nobody paid attention to him.

At the end of the party, he invited
her to have coffee with him, she was
surprised, but to be polite, she
consented. They went to a nice coffee
shop, he was too nervous to say
anything, she felt uncomfortable, she
thought, please, let me go home….
suddenly he asked the waiter.

"would you please give me some salt?
I’d like to put it in my coffee."
Everybody stared at him, How strange!
His face turned red, but still, he put
the salt in his coffee and drank it.

She asked him curiously; why you have
salt in your coffee? He replied: "when
I was a little boy, I lived near the
sea, I like playing in the sea, I
could feel the taste of the sea, just
like the taste of the salty coffee.
Now every time I have the salty
coffee, I always think of my
childhood, think of my hometown, I
miss my hometown so much, I miss my
parents who still live there". While
saying that tears filled his eyes. She
was deeply touched.

That’s his true feelings, from the
bottom of his heart. A man who can
share his homesickness, he must be a
man who loves home, cares about home,
has ties to his home. Then she also
started to speak, spoke about her
faraway hometown, her childhood, her
family. That was a really nice talk,
also a beautiful beginning of their
story.

They continued to date. She found that
he was actually a man who meets all
her demands; he had tolerance, was
kind hearted, warm, careful. He was
such a good person but she almost
missed knowing him! Thanks to his
salty coffee!

The story ended just like every
beautiful love story , the princess
married the prince, then they lived
happily ever after… And, every time
she made coffee for him, she put some
salt in it, as she knew that’s the way
he liked it.

After 40 years, he passed away, left
her a letter which said: "My dearest,
please forgive me, I have been lying
my whole life. This was the only lie
I told you—the salty coffee.

Remember the first time we dated? I
was so nervous at that time, actually
I wanted some sugar, but I said
salt. It was hard for me to change
it, so I just went ahead.I never
thought that could be the start of our
conversation! I tried to tell you the
truth many times in my life, but

I was too afraid to do that, as I have
promised not to lie to you about
anything..

Now I’m dying, I’m afraid of nothing
so I can tell you the truth: I don’t
like the salty coffee, what a strange
bad taste.. But I have had the
salty coffee for my whole life! Since
I met you, I don’tnever feel sorry for
everything I did for you. " Having you
with me is the biggest thrill of my
whole life. If I can live a second
time around, I would still want to
know you and have you for the rest of
my life,even though I have to drink
the salty coffee again".

Her tears made the letter totally wet.
One day, someone asked her: how did
the salty coffee taste? It was very
sweet, she replied.

Love is not to forget but to forgive,
not to see but to understand, not to
hear but to listen, not to let go but
to HOLD ON !!!!

Don’t ever leave the one you love for
the one you like, because the one you
like will leave you for the one they
love…

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para kay joey alvin san juan belza

vin gusto na kita... gustong gusto na kita... sobra... diko alam paanong nangyari yun basta nagising na lang ako na hinahanap ko na kakulitan mo. pero naguguluhan ako, sabi mo tol ala ka ng girlfriend... break na kayo, pero kahit saang anggulo ko tignan puro si "ghem" pa din nakikita kong hinahanap mo. paano ko nasabi? first and foremost sa cellphone mo, pagbinuksan mo ang welcome note mo pa din "ghem & vHin" tapos yung monthsarry nyo andun din. secondly, sa friendster pictures nyo pa din ang andun... alam ko hindi ganun kadaling mag-move on alvin, ako nga diko naman naging boyfriend si Jeff pero it took me nine long years bago makakalas sa kanya at ikaw nga yung reason kung paano kung nagawa yun. thirdly, never kang nag-open up sakin... masyado kang masikreto, ayaw mo ipagkatiwala sakin yung mga bagay bagay pero ikaw gusto mo magtiwala ako sayo. fouth, lahat ng ayaw ko nasa iyo na, bisyo mo sa yosi, alak at mainitin ang ulo mo, hindi ka din Christian. oo nga almost two months palang pero parang matagal na tayong magkakilala para pagkatiwalaan kita, "BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT" ang tawag dun kasi nga gusto kita bigyan ng chance pero naman vin... inaaway na ako ng pinsan ng so-called-ex gf mo aba kung tutoong mahal mo ako ipagtanggol mo naman ako? masakit kayang mapagbintangan na MANG-AAGAW? hello? ayokong makisawsaw... ayoko ng may kahati... hindi ako tumitingin sa katayuan ng isang tao sa totoo lang... ang tinitignan ko talaga ugali, masaya ako dahil kahit paano sinasabi mo yung buhay mo pero ang hindi ko mahintay ay yuong sabihin mo yung tungkol sa inyo... kung bakit tuing ibri-bring up ko si ghem palagi ka sumisigaw ng "wrap up!". alvin anu ba talaga ako para sayo? inilapit kita kay nanay dahil gusto ko maging ayos ang lahat, pero ikaw parang tinatago mo ako? anu ba ako para sayo? chewing gum na isang panapal o kaya naman isang panandaliang syota? huwag mo naman akong saktan, huwag mo naman hayaang mabastos ako ng walang kadahilan dahilan... di naman ako basta bastang babae eh, alam mo naman yan, madaling sabihin na mahal mo ang isang tao pero mahirap ipakita at panindigan. hanggang dito na lang muna, di na ako makapag-isp ng mga sasabihin at masakit na loob ko at sumasama na takbo ng utak ko baka anu pang masabi ko basta eto huling sasabihin ko sa ngayon MAHAL KITA, HUWAG KA NAMANG MAGTANGA-TANGAHAN!

reality

Sometimes, we say things out of moments of fury. Most often the outcome could be disastrous and detrimental. We vent our frustrations at our loved ones. Though we know that we ought to "think twice and act wisely", still it's often easier said than done.

honeyvin

mystery is gone so bring back the sun, bury this hate then start the journey of our fate. let's build the road of love and start on what we have... i know we'll get through this, so let's hope and wish.

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FIRST LOVE
by: joynlazaro

He Left. Actually I let him walk out the door. He had this barrel over his right shoulder while holding a chain on his left hand. seems like he can't take me anymore, The prima donna, the love of selfless maven.

I doubted on his capabilities
Now he's gone, I'm full of uncertainties
was I crazy?
have I become a burden that you just let freely?

hence, should I say end do justify means...that I have to face the consequences, which is YOU, though already free.

I'm on my knees
begging you to pull me here
help me be freed to this grudges
where they said I ought to be

If you really mean what you've said before that "love never changes but if it does then that is not love...it's lust" then get back to me, let's continue being crazy.

Let's not keep our Faith... Let's Spread it around

"Activating Faith during life's most troubled times"

joynlazaro

(What is the definition of Faith? Greek: "pistis". This word describes a strong deep rooted block--immovable--unshakable--upon which rests our belief, and from our belief we take action, (that is why "faith without works is dead"...works are faith in action!). in Encarta Dictionary it is a belief in, devotion to, or trust in somebody or something, especially without logical proof.)

The LOVE of the LORD is very visible especially to us CHRISTIANS. As we all know that God has sent his begotten son for our souls very salvation. During Christ time, I believe that he has taught the very single information on how to survive this world. He has taught us TO BELIEVE IN HIM SO WE"LL BE SAVE. What is it that is very complicated in that very simple phrase that people especially us Christians cannot understand? Do we just only believe GOD on times that He's been pouring blessings upon us? or during times that the water on the oceans are calm? there are many, uncountable Christians who keeps on complaining just like the Israelite during Moses times. Let us Check ourselves, Why do we keep on complaining and having doubt about everything yet we say we believe that there is GOD and that our GOD (who is the creator of heavens and the earth) is powerful that NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH HIM, that HE holds the whole universe and everything on it in the palm of his hand and yet we grumble? Do we still consider ourselves Faithful to the Lord then even without FAITH?

In Matthew 17: 20 when the Apostles asked Jesus why can't they drive the evil spirit out of the body of a possessed boy, Jesus said unto them " “Because of your lack of faith. I tell you with certainty, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you.Butthis kind does not come out except by prayer and fasting.” In here we can see that GOD is only asking for just a very little faith, another is in Mark 11: 22- 24 Jesus has told the Apostles that if they only have faith in HIM "For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, 'Be removed and be cast into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will come to pass, he will have whatever he says, Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." This illustrate vividly and memorably the unlimited power of God when working through men who believe and doubt not. In this verse we can contemplate that we can face and conquer great difficulties by just having "rooted-faith in God". So, how can we obtain this kind of strong "pistis" faith?

#1 We must come to Jesus!...get filled with the Holy spirit!

#2 Build our faith from the Word!...Romans 10:17 "So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God." When we have built this firm rooted "pistis" faith---then we must---

#3 Live by faith!.....Hebrews 10:38 "Now the just shall live by faith:..."We live by our relationship with Jesus, through prayer and by knowing Gods Word (the Holy Bible) We will now have a strong foundation to rest our belief on, and from which to take action!

Let us NOT GRIEVE, GRUMBLE, and COMPLAIN during the lowest point of our lives because it only make things WORSE. During difficult times for us to FORGET NOT of GOD'S favor, grace and mercy let us learn to count our BLESSINGS instead of our CROSSES. Don't you know that the phrase "FEAR NOT" is mentioned 365 times in the Bible? Just enough for our year survival that it was mentioned. Why murmur when we can count our blessings? Why worry when we can pray? We have everything we ever needed because we have GOD, hence, nothing can be against us (Rom. 8:23) and that GOD do answers our prayers (John 16:23) Let us not forget to not just have faith but let us put our Faith into action because Faith without work is dead (James 2:17) and Let's not just keep our Faith...Spread it.

All of us were going through hard times, Christian-Believers or Not, there are moments when our spirits are low. I think we all heard about the poem "Footprints in the Sand". This was written way back 1936. Mary Stevenson, the writer, for many years handwritten copies were distributed by herself to those who needed something to give them comfort at a low point in their lives. I believe this poem has touched many lives and continue touching and comforting people, I just hope as The Lord our Father God replied to the last verse of the poem "The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand, is when I carried you" made you realize that Faith is the spiritual ability to see what isn't, believe it to be, and trust God to do it in His way and time, remember that Faith is a supernatural act because Faith itself comes from GOD.

Praise the Lord! To GOD be the Glory!

So that in all things God may be praised
through Jesus Christ.
To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever.
Amen. (1 Peter 4:10-11)

Traysikel (manong sa Nueva Ecija po...)

ANG TRAYSIKEL... bow

Laki akong probinsya, diko yuon kinakahiya. Hindi tulad ng iba...nakatungtong lng ng MRT hindi na alam kung paanong pumara ng traysikel dito sa Nueva Ecija. natatandaan ko pa ng nag-ojt ako dyan sa isang Hotel sa Makati (HRM student pa lang ako nuon) may nabalitaan kami na nangyari sa isang kuya-kuyahan namin na nag-ojt din sa ka-Maynilaan. May naging costumers daw sila sa isang Restaurant sa Hotel na mga "OJT-NURSING STUDENTS" ... nagkakwentuhan ng konti, nagka-alaman silang pare-pareho palang pala silang mga estudyante, mga nag-O-OJT pare-pareho inshort. eka ng isang Nursing Student "Saang Eskwelahan kayo?" (ganyan ang tanong pero Ingles yun...tinagalog ko lang) pagkatapos magtanong idinugtong ang mamahaling eskwelahan ng mga Nursing Students... dun daw sila nag-aaral. "SA ABE INT'L SCHOOL KAMI" yaan naman ang sagot ni kuya sabay ngite... "ABE? San yun?" tanong ng isang estudyante... "Yun yung School na prinopromote ni Kristine Hermosa... Tanga!" wika naman ng kasama nitong barkada... "Ah...dun ba? diba wala daw PERMIT yung school na yun sabi sa balita sa DOS?!" ... pagmamagaling naman ng isa... "Yung ibang branch medyo may problema pero inaayos naman na, tulad sa amin sa NUEVA ECIJA" sagot naman ni kuya. Tapos bigla daw umentra yung isang babaeng Nursing Student ng makapanirang mood ng "NUEVA ECIJA?... SAN YUN?... SASAKAY KA BA NG BARKO TO GET THERE!?" ... natahimik ang lahat ng saglit... namumula na si kuya... pikon na siya sa kayabangan ng mga kausap niya... pero dahil customer is always right daw, timpi pa rin sya...kanina yun... but not this time, kaya sumagot na siya... pero mahinahon pa rin naman... sarcastic lang... "Ay hindi!?... sasakay ka ng kalabaw tapos tatawid ka ng pitong bundok tapos sasakay ka ng traysikel or jeep!" ... hanef...kapika... ano ba ito sa loob-loob ni kuya, tanga kaya talaga siya o nagtatangatangahan lang?... at pa-iigsiin ko na ang istorya... pero for sure mapipikon ka... "tiga saan ka ba miss?" yan ang tanong ni kuya... "tiga Bulacan ako" ... "ay!? Sh*@!... ka- bwiset lang" sa loob-loob ni kuya.... "kala ko matalino...boplaps pala, puro yabang lang!"

Confuzzled

To my realization...i was THEN confuzzled! (it's a combination of confused and puzzled j.s.y.k.) for the benefit of understanding of my readers, I haven't been having the easiest time lately or maybe because I wasn't able to get or have what I want... uhmm well i suppose GOD has been testing my oh-so-attitude or character. anyways, I so deserve it considering I was asking for much more longer P-A-T-I-E-N-C-E. I haven't been a good friend, sister, daughter, model, neighbor, listener, and Christ follower lately. I've been such a retard, well maybe not literally but you guest the term...yeah! EMOTIONALLY AS WELL AS MENTALLY OR PSYCHOLOGICALLY RETARDED. I think I've been a pain in my friends butt lately (esp. late last year) and also to my mom (sorry mother) God! I don't know what happened to me last year I was like a motionless apathetic retard! don't ask me why or like what happened cause I bet you wouldn't wanna hear for sure! (like it'll take forever!lol) but to like give you a rundown imma go rant you some:

a. I was crazy about this thing called love (EROS)

b. I've been coincidentally caught up between too many (cannot mention their names...they all have the same names btw)

c. I really wanted to quit cursing cause lately I've noticed that I've been cursing a lot! (GOD THIS ISN'T ME) i used to bless people yet on the same mouth I've been cursing people too... this isn't a work of a Christ-follower right? what is like so wrong with me?

d. I really wanna have a day or more of refreshments away home and from people i care the most? like self finding cause recently I've been attacked by boredom and crazy thoughts. (bad ones)

e. I really really wanna do something but basically i just can't because i chose not to because basically or maybe IT'S NOT TIME YET!

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How can MY life be so complicated but yet simple? how can one happening thing contradicts another or one way or the other? or was it only I that is making all this complications? because I know I do have a choice and yet i chose to complicate things and now here I am strangled on it! DARN!

Great thing GOD is like just right here besides me, he's never left me. how true is it that we fall short in so many ways that we lack of his glory and omens been wrapped on us instead? like I know... been there... done that! crazy huh? but that's the truth we're all gonna fall down if by chance we didn't manage to get things right or to think correct or get back on the right track!

We all have standards sets to ourselves and if by chance we manage not to meet those things we become upset, guys, it shouldn't be that way especially for the CHRISTIAN FREAK like me. let us not focus on wanting more for ourselves but let us want more of GOD instead, good thing I have planted a memory verse on my heart that keeps me on saying always that "GOD HAS A BETTER PLAN FOR ME THAN I HAVE FOR MYSELF" so true! proven too! (look for Jeremiah 29:11)

GUYS I HOPE MY SIMPLE BLOG HELPS YOU THINK THAT LIFE MAY BE FULL OF FRUSTRATIONS, CONFUSIONS, MIND BUGLING AND PUZZLING THOUGHTS AND FEELS LIKE THE BURDEN OF THE WHOLE UNIVERSE HAS BEEN THROWN ON YOU REMEMBER THAT WE HAVE A BIGGER GOD AND THAT HE HOLDS THIS UNIVERSE AND OUR LIFE IN A PALM OF HIS HANDS! YOU JUST GOT TO LEARN HOW TO DIAL JEREMIAH 33:3 AND YOU'LL COME TO REALIZATION ABOUT MATTHEW 11:30!

GOD BLESS YOU! REMEMBER IT MAY SOUND TOO CLICHE AND OH SO CHEESY FOR YOU BUT GOD LOVES YOU SO MUCH THAT HE BORES OUR SINS ON THE CROSS IN EXCHANGE OF HIS LIFE JUST FOR YOUR VERY SOUL! (John 3:16)

pachelbel's Canon in D major

Finally! I've found it! I've been hearing this song since a fetus (Lol) but when I heard this Classical song like almost 3 years ago back in Singapore I got struck by a lightning (well not literally) because i felt a sudden pinch in my heart i dunno why, since then i am asking every musicians whose into classical music if they know that song (and i would hum it to them) but they just though of it as Mozart's or Beethoven's but they were all wrong...dead wrong cause it was Johann Pachelbel's! I think This is one of the greatest hits in the classical world during Baroque Period....you guys should listen to t.

HOPE YOU'LL ENJOY....I CRY EVERY TIME I HEAR THIS, DUNNO WHY, I GUESS IT'S THE MUSIC SPEAKING TO MY HEART... THOUGH I DON'T KNOW WHAT LANGUAGE THEY'RE SPEAKING BUT I'LL SAY IT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH LOVE'S LANGUAGE... AWWWWWW!

Pachelbel's Canon In D Major (really Beautiful) - Pachelbel
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Missing Him

Missing him will always be my life's tragedy. There's this little space in me that's deceivingly small-looking; it looks tiny until you get inside. When you get in you'll see it's huge. Gargantuan. Colossal. That space is his. It will always be his.

HAPP NEW YEAR

WE HAD A BLAST. THIS YEAR START HAS BEEN FULL OF FUN... LAST CHRISTMAS IS LOVED TOO... HEHEHEH...HERE'S A GLIMPSE OF OUR NEW YEAR FIREWORKS DISPLAY CELEBRATION...ENJOY WATCHING....YEEHAH.

I miss you

I miss him.

There's a little space in me that's deceivingly small-looking; it looks tiny until you get inside. When you go in it's huge. Because how I love him is huge. Gargantuan. Colossal. It's like the Charlie and the Chocolate Factory door. It looks small and you have to duck to go in, but inside is this wonderful place that someone could only think of when they were high or dreaming or really sleepy. That space is his. It will always be his.

I miss him.

Sometimes the true tragedy in life is getting what you want. Or at least we trick ourselves into thinking it is what we want. That's the true tragedy in life. Not death, not losing, not NOT getting our way. It's when we get what we want and then realize how wrong we were. That's where I'm at now.

My life just feels blah. Kind of brown. Not a nice rich sienna brown, or a deep, full chocolate brown. It's more like an accidental brown. The kind of brown you get on accident when you've mixed too many sorts together on your canvas without waiting for stuff to dry. Accidental brown. I should call Crayola...

December 30, 2008

Dear Diary,

Nung bago magpasko nag pray ako sabi ko "LORD SANA PO MAKITA KO SI JEFF KASI MISS NA MISS KO NA SIYA" tapos katext ko mga bestfriends ko sabi namin kita kits kami this Christmas para magreunion kasi it's been some time since we bonded all together and we deicided to meet up Christmas afternoon and voila! we had a blast, it was like ages since we shout at each other's faces and like talk like we're at both ends of the earth, hours pasts vanessa's sister texted her to go home early so we decided to take her home, on our way back as we crosses the streets we passed ma'am Liway's house so we decided stop and like have a small chit-chat with her, after like 15 or 20 minutes we decided to leave and have a walk... we have a plan, it was dee-dee's and lhenski's actually and it was to go to Jeff's internet cafe. natanaw ko sya sa maliit na butas...ilong pa lang alam ko si Jeff na yuon, nanginginig ako...nahihiya...pucha!!hahaha!! ang lakas ng loob ng dalawa, dee-dee's come up with another plan at yun ay ang mag-internet kila Jeff... shit kako...pucha di na ako makahinga...nanlalambot ako gusto ko ng tumakbo pero hindi ako makakilos. sumunod pumasok si lhen, naiwan ako sa labas, nagkukubli sa dilim. after almost eight and a half minutes nag-out na si dee-dee at vinideo nya pa si Jeff bilang CHristmas gift daw sa akin...hahahah...hiyang hiya na ako pero hindi niya ata alam na nasa labas ako, hindi na siya nagpabayad at eight minutes nga lang daw ang tinagal ni dee-dee halos wala lang daw yun... libre na kumbaga! so lumabas na ako ng gate ng tuluyan kasunod si lhen at dee, pucha nagulat ako bumabalik si dee-dee sa loob, kagago sabi ko! at kinuha pala niya number ni Jeff! hala paglabas namin nagtatatakbo na kami. nagpunta kami sa bahay nila lhen at duon pinanuod ng paulit-ulit yung video ni Jeff tapos tinext ni norlyn si Jeff, eeeeehhhhk! nagreply hala sige text-text tapos kinuha ko na number nya...ang saya saya ko, i think that was the happiest Christmas i ever had. kaso ng ako na ang nagtext the next day hindi na sya nagreply up to now walang text! nabadtrip ako...lungkot shit... pero pinasaya ako ng mga kaibigan ko nung araw ng pasko, maraming salamat sa inyo bagamat napaka babaw ng kaligayahan ko alam ninyong mahirap kong sinuong ang WALONG taon dahil habang binabagtas ko ang mga araw na yuon wala na akong ibang pangalan na bingaggit kundi Jeff, Jeff, at Jeff. at para naman sayo Jeff maraming salamat sa sweet memories that you've shared with me especially that three pages letter you had for me written on our Diary (school handbook) tinago ko yun talaga ng mabuti, gusto ko lang malaman mo mahal na mahal kita na hindi ko sinagot si jhun dahil hinihintay kita pero pagpasok natin ng third year si mary rose na ang nililigawan mo, nasaktan ako nun kaya bumaling ako kay jhun pero ikaw pa rin ang laman ng isip ko, totoo yan kaya kahit mamatay man ako, kahit na tinatanong nila kung anu ba ang meron sayo at bakit ako nagkakaganito hindi ko din alam, eight years ago na actually next year nine years ago na pero kita mo naman ikaw pa din ang hinahanap ko. katulad ng sinulat mo sa diary ko "SANA MASAYA KA- MASAYA KA SANA" (kahit never akong naging masaya kasi nawala ka) i hope ikaw naman ang masaya kahit ibang-iba ka na. hinding-hindi kita makakalimutan kahit na siguro magka-amnisya ako never kitang malilimutan. Jeff mahal kita sobra. I'll always pray for you, always be here for you too...even if it takes me another eight years...(huwag naman na sana!) <3

Christmas Reunion

This was the happiest 1st ever bestfrenz Christmas reunion held at Villa Ramos resort last December 26, 2008. we had a blast and we were like teenagers again! this was taken by Cindy... she has colds and cough that's why she wasn't able to swim with us but that's okay...loveUguys!