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I am currently damned!!! Why can’t I just have a life…a normal one? I haven’t been experiencing new things for a long time, though I somehow enjoy my life now but I’m searching for something I don’t know. I love my life, I love the way it is made for me but I can’t be like this all the time…I need to grow up, I wish I knew what I was looking for so it won’t be that hard for me anymore. I don’t know what I really want anyway so what can I do. All I knew right now is I need to fall in love, the question would be…to whom? That would be another story to tell. I think I’m falling for someone but the question would be…is he falling for me too? I believe that God has a better plan for us than we have for ourselves, so no matter how I plan for my future still changes is expected…nothing is constant but I do agree that we hold our future, our destiny, our own journey and no matter what happened we should be grateful indeed…I don’t know to whom all I knew is to the Creator of the heavens and the earth, though I don’t want to limit myself so I won’t period any moment of my life…but I can pause…life sometimes is very difficult, you don’t know what and when to decide…sometimes it’s already there but you can’t grab the opportunity. I wasn’t and never been courageous…I am a closet of everything, I am always like this, I wish sometimes I can publish all my writings or I can be the next Beauty Queen (hahah…I know…I know…don’t laugh), I don’t know…sometimes we really have to go through the most difficult situation for us to realize the stand of our faith...after all we can say to our self.. Wow...that was manageable". Sometimes in life we need to do things that get us outside our comfort zone because if we don’t then we’ll never know, because sometimes we even stop our selves from doing things we wanna do not because we are afraid of doing it but because we don’t wanna try. Life is a risk, whether you win or loose not knowing would be the biggest lost. All I need to have is the right venue because I know this is the right time. This is me…this is my so-called-life, I hope someday if somehow if I won’t be able to continue my story, there’ll be someone who’s willing to continue what I’ve started. I love you all and thanks for viewing my craft.

ATTENTION GUYS

lately we've terminated a teacher who's been cheating on his wife by engaging through a relationship with his student. this is clearly a malicious act and he's been sued by the child family. this teacher is almost of his forty's and the girl is only fourteen. their relationship has been already three year, clearly the girls paerents is separated and the girl is just looking for a father-figure. what the freaking teacher did is grab that opportunity and scandalously drawn a relationship to the gal. when we terminated this person he got so absurd and he's gone out mad because he won't be able to see the apple of his eyes already and that he wont be able to caress the child as reported by the gals friend. such an act is very gross and that he can't accept.

afterwards we've been recieving threats right and left. and such an unnamed person made such a libelous letter with regard of defamation of our Institution. we clearly have an idea but we can't just pinpoint Him. so what we did is we blotter him to the Police and the Barangay/Municipality.

with regards with this I would just like to SHOUT-OUT that whatever happened to me and my family, such person who is liable is no other than Him...Fernando Y. Marcelo

thank you guys. i just thought that this space will be helpful.and i was right.

quest for joy

The main idea of living a life is to be happy, because no matter how hard you try to put your heart and soul to the things you were doing still things would be nonsense if you are not happy.

yada nada

I'm so stupid to think

that I lost something

that has never been mine

yada yada

Ironies

I'm so glad that i've found a friend

The one who's willing to comprehend

A kind that'll stay untill the end

Someone who'll give a hand to lend

they think we're typical

we think we're not

they think we're physical

we prove we're not

i missed the time we had before

i missed you the moment you step off the door

i missed the laugh once we enjoy

i missed the cries and tears of joy

they say it's critical

to continue our life

they say it's cynical

but they don't even know if it's logical

currently damned!

I am currently damned!!! Why can’t I just have a life…a normal one. I haven’t been experiencing new things for a long time, though I somehow enjoy my life now but I’m searching for something I don’t know. I love my life, I love the way it is made for me but I can’t be like this all the time…I need to grow up, I wish I knew what I was looking for so it won’t be that hard for me anymore. I don’t what I really want anyway so what can I do. All I knew right now is I need to fall in love, the question would be…to whom?...that would be another story to tell. I think I’m falling for someone but the question would be…is he falling for me too? I believe that God has a better plan for us than we have for ourselves, so no matter how I plan for my future still changes is expected…nothing is constant but I do agree that we hold our future, our destiny, our own journey and no matter what happened we should be grateful indeed…I don’t know to whom all I knew is to the Creator of the heavens and the earth, though I don’t want to limit myself so I won’t period any moment of my life…but I can pause…life sometimes is very difficult, you don’t know what and when to decide…sometimes it’s already there but can’t grab the opportunity. I wasn’t and never been courageous…I am a closet writer, I am always like this, I wish sometimes I can publish all my writings, my diary, my life like Anne Frank, who knows right? All I need to have is the right venue ‘because I know that this is the right time. This is me…this is my so-called-life, I hope someday if somehow I won’t be able to continue my story, there’ll be someone who’s willing to continue what I’ve started. I love you all and thanks for viewing my craft.

Peace on earth:In Demand

Struggles
(Social/political issue)

Peace on earth:
In demand
joynlazaro


Peace was created by man
But the same time war was done by human
Is there still place where we can find peace?
Is there still love that binds human fists?
All I hear were cries and mourns
Peace where art though I am torn


War was done by mischievous act
Still people find and ask where do we lack?
Aren’t you afraid that time will come
That God will arrive and bring his kingdom come
What will you say if He ask what have you done
Will you say, yes sir I had faithfully completed things, I’m done


Leaders ought to free his men
But what he’s creating is conflict between them
We are oblige to pursue his command
But did he realize the cause, please comprehend
Except then again one should respect public opinion
But never be adamant insofar as to prevent collision


Maybe after all things were just easily said than done
But at least one must stand not just being swan
Many heroes start fighting with their pen
‘Cause they never wanted to happen the ghastly omen
This place is not going better let’s not pretend
So don’t add hostility, let’s put this to end


Peace can’t be just found here and there around
It should start from us where love can be found
We’re all pilgrims on the journey of this narrow road
So let’s not overpower other nations abode
Let us try to figure where we should stand
To prevent fighting as peace on earth is very in demand

My guardian angel, once careless and free

flew into the clouds and lost touch with me.

Her tears were cold and wet, falling on my face.

Her smile had left us without a trace.

Her angelic lips quivered, frozen and scared

I felt rain clouds visiting, and had to prepare

I knew that angels, often content

were very special presents that God had sent

To see one so sad,

so afraid,so alone

had made me weep

while the cold winds had blown

Her wings lost feathers

comforting and soft

falling from the stars

floating aloft

Her pain was felt throughout the land

to feel true misery is impossible to stand

I prayed so that when her hurting stops

I'll be able to taste the angel's teardrops

Looking through your eyes

Looking in your eyes

I feel myself falling in love with you

You said I love you

And I said it too

We went to our very own special spot

For no real reason at all

We sat and talked and looked at one another

And then the rain began to fall

We could have left just as quick as we came

But no, you wanted to stay in the rain

You asked me a question I?ll never forget

Have you ever tasted the raindrops?

I looked at you funny and you gave me a sigh

The cutest look, as I wondered, why?

Why, did you ask me to taste the rain?

Well, what did have to loose or gain?

I watched you with a careful eye

And did the same as you

You were looking up at the cloudy sky

But my eyes were stuck on you like glueI lifted my head to look at the sky

And closed my eyes really tight

Just as I thought I?d caught a raindrop

You suddenly held me tight

I opened my eyes with slight alarm

As you kissed me soft and sweet

I remember that kiss like it was yesterday

I still feel those raindrops on my cheek

I tasted the raindrops like I never had before

It was worth every second of bliss

Every time I think of that moment

I think of my raindrop kiss

We sat close together on that one special rock

And we held each other tight

Then almost as suddenly as it came

The sun came out from beneath the rain

The most beautiful colors I've ever seen

Came out on the western sky

The sun was setting and the moment was perfect

More than any money could buy

As the sun slowly set and the sky lit up

You began carving our names in our special rock

I told you I would never forget this moment

In my heart this memory is locked

As our names were finished and permanently engraved

We watched the sun finish its day

We slowly got up to leave this place

Which was a year ago this MayI haven't been to that spot in a year

Where did all the time go?I will visit this place alone this time

And I will finally have to let go

This memory will be in my heart forever

But you will not remain in my mindI don't know if that love, will be seen again

For that love I cannot findI will go to this spot as we promised we would

But you will not be there this time

Why is it that you can?t keep your promise?I know that I'm keeping mine

Never again will I taste the raindrops

The way I did with youAnd when I go to this spot again

I will say goodbye to you.

sasper the homosexual ghost

men this is freaking funny. you should watch this

http://myspacetv.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=18576307

<3 aww!

i am who they made me to be

no shit no turds no guarantee

i can be whom you wanted to bejust call,

be there,when i'm free

fuck all the bullshits fuck off you wannabees

you can't beat me never but i'll beat you, you'll see

fuck off!just piss off untiL i hold no grudge

fuck you all slithers you aint got no fudge

you dickheads and jackass where labels as morons

you emo's and goths peace y'all got nothing to do this

this is me! if you can't handle

then i'm too hot for you baby!

once again

i wanted to have the best story IF I FALL IN LOVE.. that's so annoying...everyone is dreaming of a life that is happilly ever after but what is the truth is there such or no such thing? cau'se the truth is everytime we try to perfect things chaos arises just like in every relationship right? that's the reality but there is something we can do...that is keep on loving the person no matter what his/her weaknesses could be, because love isn't about just happiness it's also about madness, sacrifices and frustration cause in everything their should be fairness like parellelism. i'm not saying that we have to do wrong things what i'm trying to tell is life isn't perfect but it is heading towards perfection so don't give up to anything so fast like the world that keeps on turning and water that keeps on flowing..forever isn't not a word but place so when you say forever mean it...be there..saying i love you should be life changing.. so if i fall in love i want it to perfect.

kissed in the rain

one sunday morning i was on my way to the church when an unfamiliar men around his 30 years suddenly excused himself to asked me a very significant question,what kind of romantic scene would you wanted to experienced mam?what said i, i'm sorry let me introduced myself first, i'm Kirk, i always see you walking here, i can see in your face that very strong dream, why would you give me a wish?nope he said then what did you asked again?i said, then he answered what kind of romantic scene would you want to experience?then i pause and answered..."maybe i wanted to be kissed in te rain by the person whom i truly love among the mob".he's shocked, then replied, what if there's this man whom you don't like at all would wanted to kiss you?i was shocked too..then i followed uhmmm, i dunno..why is that?then finaly a tear fell on his cheeks while saying...CAN I?
(shox...dat was absurd)
i dunno..why

speak

A burrow of growing sorrow, and itjust won't go away, it feels like it'sgoing to drive me mad and insane, andthe stupid thing is they can't stopit, can't help it, it's telling themto give up and lose hope, to allreaders out there someone just help'emplease. their life is getting moremiserable everyday, they feel solonely inside and outside. they'restarting to loose the will to live andfind eternal peace. sometimes theydream of ending it all by terminatingtheir very pitiful little life, theyfeel so very empty, with no one tohold on to. I'm secretly hoping forsomeone who has the strength, and willto help me pull'em up from much ownedhole of sadness. coz they feel likethey have no pride anymore, feels likean empty shell waiting to be crushedinto pieces. they wanted to breakdownbut still holding on a single thread,and hope someone throws'em down a ropeto give them some hope.lets help them,lets hear'em out!

this is me

good in noting ... can't make a men laugh or cry...can't know wat's men thinking and dunno how to reach their heart...maybe everything is just simple yet too hard for me to understand..maybe i'll just mess up pplS life..so i guess the best is just stay away from their life and wish them happy always..everybody have their own story to write bout...i did had one...after i started,i dunno how to end it...i ain't wanna stop my story there but i have to...but i guess it will be alright...there will be another person to continue my story...
arghhh...i dunno wat i'm talking bout... but now i just need sombody to care and love me... will tat be posible ?

speak

A burrow of growing sorrow, and itjust won't go away, it feels like it's going to drive me mad and insane, and the stupid thing is they can't stop it, can't help it, it's telling them to give up and lose hope, to all readers out there someone just help 'em please. their life is getting more miserable everyday, they feel so lonely inside and outside. they're starting to loose the will to live and find eternal peace. sometimes they dream of ending it all by terminating their very pitiful little life, they feel so very empty, with no one to hold on to. I'm secretly hoping for someone who has the strength, and will to help me pull 'em up from much owned hole of sadness. coz they feel like they have no pride anymore, feels like an empty shell waiting to be crushed into pieces. they wanted to break down but still holding on a single thread,and hope someone throws 'em down a rope to give them some hope. lets help them,lets hear'em out!

so-called-life

Life is all about learning to survive, carry on in a sense of knowing which way to go, in a path thast leads us day-by-day in a different and unfamiliar faces which helps us concludes of things that are not yet seen, things that are rarely proved and things that hasn't happened yet that bring us to strange places. We are indeed similar in a way tht we run our so-called-life. like a piece of cake that persuades us to finish it htough we know it's made of ingredients that is not helpful for our body. we say that honesty is the best policy but the truth is lies conserves us, it protects us...it is the only thing that best describe our privacy as secret. it shields us like life, we deal with it or not shelter it or trash, we hold it in our hands. The only thing that brings people together is not music but life and death. Grotesque people even offer their life to spirits in exchange to what they known as liberty, for they refer death as the escape to life's brutal reality. The perfection and imperfection often provides us additional knowledge for the tranquility we've been looking for to escape this world of paranoia and the manica of it. we never wanted things to take its toll on us. i remmeber a man quoted "YOUR PAST DOES NOT DETERMINE YOUR FUTURE". sir, i beg to disagree, cause we hold and journey to this fate of life and whichever path we take it'll leads us to the next place, we are afraid of our ghost. it's the reason why we are hiding from it, that is why we are so disdain of it, cause the truth is we never wanted our past hounting us.

The Secret Promise

There was once a story of love, a kind of love that never was. It all started in a dream, a kind of which no one else's have. I often encourage myself to love one way or another but I'm so afraid that i'll be living in my past while he's over it. i had this most memorable story wherein it almost took me eight years before i have totaly moved on. I really fall for Him and he's my first. right then and there i promise myself that i will never fall in love again after the incident, not even in the near future. so it happened. I became very focused on my career which became my life and i was and never aware that in my life's peakest part i'll be encountering onother frustration, i have to keep it by myself so no one will know, it is such a burden to keep a load of secret ionside you but i have to, cause the safest place to hide your secret is within you. Burrying sorrows, fear, dreams, memories of your own is the hardest part but i realy intended to keep ot to my grave. It's not that I don't trust people, well i gave them the benefit of the doubt, it's just that I think it would be so very unfair to let others know your secrets when they have their own to keep, you'll never know when someone spill out yours. like love i didn't know how it strikes me when i know that i have my heart guarded, indeed fate is mysterious so as i thought I know my stand, i have been hit by cupid's arrow. The first time I saww him there's no goosebumps or butterfly on stomachs or palpitations, the most crucial part is when i know i has fallen for him. I don't know. maybe it's just me whose having this brutal feeling, I don't want to rush into these though I realy want to spoil myself. By the way he has no idea of this. Everyone has their secrets and dreams, lucky for those who has theirs fulfilled. I almost forgotten to breathe for the last eight years. and now all of the sudden I am Breathing...once more. My hopes and Ideas yet again came into life. Truly when you're trying to reach for people that's when you can't get in touch with 'em, maybe we weren't meant for each other or maybe fate doesn't agree on it's timing or God maybe testing my temper or rather He only gave me an inspiration to see and experience the beauty of love once more. I know, someday, somehow I'll be over this, but as soon as end comes nearer I'll be holding to my faith, cause I won't let me see this love slips away and end in somebody else's arms. I promise, as long as I can, I'll keep you mine.

~joyenz~