I am currently damned!!! Why can’t I just have a life…a normal one? I haven’t been experiencing new things for a long time, though I somehow enjoy my life now but I’m searching for something I don’t know. I love my life, I love the way it is made for me but I can’t be like this all the time…I need to grow up, I wish I knew what I was looking for so it won’t be that hard for me anymore. I don’t know what I really want anyway so what can I do. All I knew right now is I need to fall in love, the question would be…to whom? That would be another story to tell. I think I’m falling for someone but the question would be…is he falling for me too? I believe that God has a better plan for us than we have for ourselves, so no matter how I plan for my future still changes is expected…nothing is constant but I do agree that we hold our future, our destiny, our own journey and no matter what happened we should be grateful indeed…I don’t know to whom all I knew is to the Creator of the heavens and the earth, though I don’t want to limit myself so I won’t period any moment of my life…but I can pause…life sometimes is very difficult, you don’t know what and when to decide…sometimes it’s already there but you can’t grab the opportunity. I wasn’t and never been courageous…I am a closet of everything, I am always like this, I wish sometimes I can publish all my writings or I can be the next Beauty Queen (hahah…I know…I know…don’t laugh), I don’t know…sometimes we really have to go through the most difficult situation for us to realize the stand of our faith...after all we can say to our self.. Wow...that was manageable". Sometimes in life we need to do things that get us outside our comfort zone because if we don’t then we’ll never know, because sometimes we even stop our selves from doing things we wanna do not because we are afraid of doing it but because we don’t wanna try. Life is a risk, whether you win or loose not knowing would be the biggest lost. All I need to have is the right venue because I know this is the right time. This is me…this is my so-called-life, I hope someday if somehow if I won’t be able to continue my story, there’ll be someone who’s willing to continue what I’ve started. I love you all and thanks for viewing my craft.
