I miss you

I miss him.

There's a little space in me that's deceivingly small-looking; it looks tiny until you get inside. When you go in it's huge. Because how I love him is huge. Gargantuan. Colossal. It's like the Charlie and the Chocolate Factory door. It looks small and you have to duck to go in, but inside is this wonderful place that someone could only think of when they were high or dreaming or really sleepy. That space is his. It will always be his.

I miss him.

Sometimes the true tragedy in life is getting what you want. Or at least we trick ourselves into thinking it is what we want. That's the true tragedy in life. Not death, not losing, not NOT getting our way. It's when we get what we want and then realize how wrong we were. That's where I'm at now.

My life just feels blah. Kind of brown. Not a nice rich sienna brown, or a deep, full chocolate brown. It's more like an accidental brown. The kind of brown you get on accident when you've mixed too many sorts together on your canvas without waiting for stuff to dry. Accidental brown. I should call Crayola...

December 30, 2008

Dear Diary,

Nung bago magpasko nag pray ako sabi ko "LORD SANA PO MAKITA KO SI JEFF KASI MISS NA MISS KO NA SIYA" tapos katext ko mga bestfriends ko sabi namin kita kits kami this Christmas para magreunion kasi it's been some time since we bonded all together and we deicided to meet up Christmas afternoon and voila! we had a blast, it was like ages since we shout at each other's faces and like talk like we're at both ends of the earth, hours pasts vanessa's sister texted her to go home early so we decided to take her home, on our way back as we crosses the streets we passed ma'am Liway's house so we decided stop and like have a small chit-chat with her, after like 15 or 20 minutes we decided to leave and have a walk... we have a plan, it was dee-dee's and lhenski's actually and it was to go to Jeff's internet cafe. natanaw ko sya sa maliit na butas...ilong pa lang alam ko si Jeff na yuon, nanginginig ako...nahihiya...pucha!!hahaha!! ang lakas ng loob ng dalawa, dee-dee's come up with another plan at yun ay ang mag-internet kila Jeff... shit kako...pucha di na ako makahinga...nanlalambot ako gusto ko ng tumakbo pero hindi ako makakilos. sumunod pumasok si lhen, naiwan ako sa labas, nagkukubli sa dilim. after almost eight and a half minutes nag-out na si dee-dee at vinideo nya pa si Jeff bilang CHristmas gift daw sa akin...hahahah...hiyang hiya na ako pero hindi niya ata alam na nasa labas ako, hindi na siya nagpabayad at eight minutes nga lang daw ang tinagal ni dee-dee halos wala lang daw yun... libre na kumbaga! so lumabas na ako ng gate ng tuluyan kasunod si lhen at dee, pucha nagulat ako bumabalik si dee-dee sa loob, kagago sabi ko! at kinuha pala niya number ni Jeff! hala paglabas namin nagtatatakbo na kami. nagpunta kami sa bahay nila lhen at duon pinanuod ng paulit-ulit yung video ni Jeff tapos tinext ni norlyn si Jeff, eeeeehhhhk! nagreply hala sige text-text tapos kinuha ko na number nya...ang saya saya ko, i think that was the happiest Christmas i ever had. kaso ng ako na ang nagtext the next day hindi na sya nagreply up to now walang text! nabadtrip ako...lungkot shit... pero pinasaya ako ng mga kaibigan ko nung araw ng pasko, maraming salamat sa inyo bagamat napaka babaw ng kaligayahan ko alam ninyong mahirap kong sinuong ang WALONG taon dahil habang binabagtas ko ang mga araw na yuon wala na akong ibang pangalan na bingaggit kundi Jeff, Jeff, at Jeff. at para naman sayo Jeff maraming salamat sa sweet memories that you've shared with me especially that three pages letter you had for me written on our Diary (school handbook) tinago ko yun talaga ng mabuti, gusto ko lang malaman mo mahal na mahal kita na hindi ko sinagot si jhun dahil hinihintay kita pero pagpasok natin ng third year si mary rose na ang nililigawan mo, nasaktan ako nun kaya bumaling ako kay jhun pero ikaw pa rin ang laman ng isip ko, totoo yan kaya kahit mamatay man ako, kahit na tinatanong nila kung anu ba ang meron sayo at bakit ako nagkakaganito hindi ko din alam, eight years ago na actually next year nine years ago na pero kita mo naman ikaw pa din ang hinahanap ko. katulad ng sinulat mo sa diary ko "SANA MASAYA KA- MASAYA KA SANA" (kahit never akong naging masaya kasi nawala ka) i hope ikaw naman ang masaya kahit ibang-iba ka na. hinding-hindi kita makakalimutan kahit na siguro magka-amnisya ako never kitang malilimutan. Jeff mahal kita sobra. I'll always pray for you, always be here for you too...even if it takes me another eight years...(huwag naman na sana!) <3

Christmas Reunion

This was the happiest 1st ever bestfrenz Christmas reunion held at Villa Ramos resort last December 26, 2008. we had a blast and we were like teenagers again! this was taken by Cindy... she has colds and cough that's why she wasn't able to swim with us but that's okay...loveUguys!

December 25, 2008

OMG! This is the best Christmas I ever had! why? because it's the first time i think after like 18 years (if my memory serves me correct) that my mom, uncle and I celebrated Christmas together and it was also the first time that my friends and i bonded together again after high- school years, and after 8 years (secret) haha... i miss him, i asked God to grant my Christmas wish and He did. Thank you po Jesus.

what is Love

ღ i was asked to define what LOVE is........ I can't think of any definition until i remember that once you stole my heart, so all i can say is that it is something that makes the heart mysteriously go wild... such a mystery of the human heart! ღ

ABOUT HIM

I found out just lately, maybe like two years ago that I only happened to LOVE (and I mean it) only HIM (he'd probably knew it, he'd probably not, i don't know so I'll just cross my finger that still he does) cause it's like yearsssssssss ago. I indicated 8 extra "S" because that denotes the years I've been through insanity because I was...and I am still stuck on him. i dunno why, he's just a plain stoopid guy with no dreams for future, he just lives for the day, simple, clean, cute (hahah), well I'm really not sure but one thing I'm sure of... it's that once he loved me.


all my hopes were shattered, felt like i was devastated, i wasn't able to fight for him cause he thought i have a boyfriend already back then. he didn't even asked so i didn't manage to tell him, and that was the biggest mistake i think i will never forget! if he read this, he might laugh or curse but i won't care, not now, not after eight years. shit! i love him so much that i wasn't able to move on because i was always hoping that I'll see him again one day and that eight years will be just like yesterday, if i could only indicate his name i will but still i can't cause I'm afraid that by this time I'll be the one to be rejected, and i don't want that to happened. maybe it'll be better left unsaid than I'll hear something that i don't want to hear. am i very too late? if i am then i just hope you'll realize how much pain and longing I've been through just to type this, and i won't regret that cause i love you, i really don't wanna live in my past cause all I'll be living with will be your laughs, smiles and a three short pages of sweetest letter. darn! those were the sweetest letter I've ever received and that was still intact on that diary we had.


Stuck! can't move. do you know the feeling that you really wanna go but you can't because there's this force pulling you like gravity of a fool? that's the feeling, that's the reason and i don't know what will happened next cause believe it or not I've never been happier with anyone, but with you.

='(

BASEHAN NG TALINO

kanina parang mababaliw na ako kakaisip kay Jeff Arjay B. Rivera kaya naman naisip ko gawin ang palagian kong ginagawa...ang magbasa...tinatamad akong tapusin yung Painted House ni John Grisham kaya nag-internet muna ako, nag update ng blog ko. post dito post dun...tapos nagbasa basa na ako hanggang sa natagpuan ko tong site ng babaeng ito. amfufu. ala na akong ginawa kundii tumawa. sabi ng nanay ko; "anak bakit kaba tawa jan ng taw?" (usual na tanong ng magulang pagnakitang wala namang kausap ang anak pero abot ang halak-hak) sabi ko naman; "natatawa po kasi ako sa blog ng babaeng ito...makatotohana" hanef...dika maniwala eto basahin mo isa nyang blog tapos eto ung site nya sa multiply bisitahin mo...


AND HER BLOG GOES LIKE THIS

*Ano nga b ang sukatan ng pggng mtalino?... Kumuha aq ng.... Ruler... Protractor... Compass... medida(!)... Timbangan... Graduated cylinder... Beaker.. Serological pipette, nismhan q p ng rubber aspirator! Saka q nlaman... Wula pla qng su2katin! Sa-yang na-man!ü

*Ano nga b ang basehan ng ktalinuhan ng isang living thing?

-una, kelangan me yutak

-pngalawa, ung yutak dpt my laman

-pangatlo, ung laman, hnd un crumpy o coco jam , CSF po! Csf ang laman. (!?)

*Pano mla2man kung mtalino ka?

-ganto... pumunta ka sa mall, hnapin ang boutique n my pnkmarami at pnkamgarang slamin at humarap.. Humarap s salamin.. Pumikit.. Dumilat.. Sby sbng bulaga! Pgktpos I lumpit s salamin.. ifocus ang tngin s mukha. Partcularly, s noo.. Mghanap s noo ng blak spot. Ung nittwg ntng 'mole'. Aun! Pg me nkta ka, swerte! Mtalino ka!ü

nung bata aq, mtalino ung nkkspell ng mississippi, nk2tpos ng alphabet song, nkkpgtyms n gmit ang sampung darile, alam n plural ang noun kpg my -ed to(ü), at mrmi png iba.. Ngayong hnd p nmn aq mtanda, pro pmnsan mnsan n ngmmrunong, npgnilay nilayan q n hnd lhat ng nissb ng teacher q, totoo; hnd lhat ng utos ng mga ate q, nkkbuti sken; hnd lhat ng mtaba, cute; hnd lhat ng kalbo, msmang tao; hnd lhat ng taong nkasmyl eh msya, ung iba kulng lng ng turnilya.

^porke highest ka s mga exams nio, mtalino kn. Kc hnd nmn lhat ng exams n nibbgy, pngmta2lino. Ska! malay mo 100 items, 98 ka, eh 97 lng pla ung ksunod mo, iicpn mo p kyang mtalino ka pg nlaman mong tuldok lng ang kulng kya ngkmali xa? Isa pa! 100 items uli, pro highest ka, un nga lng 56 ka. Haha. Kawawa nmn. Kung aq un, mggng proud aq. Lol

^hnd lhat ng mtalino ngttnong. Totoo. Kc ang mtalino, sriling sikap n ngh2nap ng ksagutan s kanyang kacuriousan... Ska, depende, kc Hnd lhat ng tnong me sense, at hnd lhat ng tao, me sense. AT HND LHAT NG BLOG ME SENSE.

^mtalino ung hnd n kelangan mgrebyu kpg me exam. Ung tunay n mtalino, nkksurvive s mga surprise quizzes. nang hnd nango2pya!ö

^ang mtalino, nkknig.. Hnd kelangan ng notes. Ang hnd mtalino, hnd nkknig. Pro my notes. *_+

^ang mtalino, d nkkpgcompete ng grades, ng scores. Pg nkta mo test paper mo n mdming parallel diagonal lines, itago mo n agad! Dpt humble! Kc blita q pg nipgka2lat ang ktalinuhan, unti unting nauubos eh..

^ang matalino, mgaling! Ta-ma! Dpt ms mataas ang score s problem solving kesa s identification ska multiple choice. Odd man out kesa matching type.

^ang matalino,...... panget!

Wooh! swerte q d aq mtalino!üö

ang hnd matalino: mgaling... tsumamba.. mhilig s... bonus!.. ska bglng nggng religious kpg me exam nuh!

IN LOVE

Yña's...

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life… You give them a piece of youR HEART BUT THEY WANT THE WHOLE NOT JUST A PART. (joyenz)

UNCERTAIN FATE: Romeo and Rosaline...then Juliet

Juliet wasn't Romeo's first Love.
It was a Beautiful lady named Rosaline.

Romeo is infatuated with Rosaline at the beginning of the play. Rosaline never appears onstage, but it is said by other characters that she is very beautiful and has sworn to live a life of chastity.

Rosaline, like Juliet is also a Capulet. Romeo met Juliet in a party thrown by the Capulet's and fell in love with Juliet instantly.

That's how uncertain love could is; the person who we think are meant for us are really just INSTRUMENTS to find THE ONE DESTINED FOR US. true enough, but then again certainty is always just at the Present but not in the future.

FLIRTY CHEWING GUM

*and i quote:*

OIST? IKW CHEWING GUM? WEH, I DON'T THINK SO...YOU DON'T DESERVE TO BE SUCH.

ALAM MO MAY BATAS SA FLIRTING...PAG ANG KA-FLIRT MO AYAW PANG UMAMIN, NAG-EENJOY PA YAN. "CATCH ME IF YOU CAN ANG DRAMA". ANG LAGAY EH XA LANG BA ANG PAMYSTERIOUS? SUBUKAN MO RING GAWAN NG "KALYO" YANG UTAK NYA PARA QUITS.


*unquote*

hahah...oh diba kaporma? hanef. yan ang ABOGADA.

(sagot ito ni mam bem sa tanong ko about FLIRTING at pagiging CHEWING GUM KO DAW...panapal ba? parang option. inelaborate masyado)=D maraming salamat mis bem

Provrbs 30: 18-19

There are three things that amazes me— actually no, there are four things that I don’t understand: how an eagle glides through the sky, how a snake slithers on a rock, how a ship navigates the ocean, and how a man loves a woman.

Salamat Bob Ong

1. “Lahat naman ng tao sumeseryoso pagtinamaan ng pagmamahal. Yun nga lang, hindi lahat matibay para sa temptasyon.”

2. “Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang taong malapit sayo. Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo.”

3. “Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawakan ng iba. “

4. “Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang.”

5. “Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na.”

6. “Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin.”

7. “Kung maghihintay ka nang ng lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din.”

8. “Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang.”

9. “Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa.”

10. “Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka. Kaya quits lang.”

11. “Bakit ba ayaw matulog ng mga bata sa tanghali? alam ba nilang pag natuto silang umibig e hindi na sila makakatulog kahit gusto nila?

12. “Hindi lungkot o takot ang mahirap sa pag-iisa kundi ang pagtanggap na sa bilyon-bilyong tao sa mundo, wala man lang nakipaglaban upang makasama ka.”

13. “Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!”

14. “nalaman kong hindi final exam ang passing rate ng buhay. hindi ito multiple choice, identification, true or false, enumeration or fill-in-the-blanks na sinasagutan kundi essay na isinusulat araw-araw. Huhusgahan ito hindi base sa kung tama o mali ang sagot, kundi base sa kung may kabuluhan ang mga isinulat o wala. Allowed ang erasures.”

15. “Wag magmadali sa pag-aasawa. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon sa hinaharap, mag-iiba pa ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong di pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang sa kaboses niya si Debbie Gibson o magaling mag-breakdance. Totoong mas importante ang kalooban ng tao higit anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan sa eskwelahan e nagmumukha ring pandesal. Maniwala ka.”

16. “ayokong nasasanay sa mga bagay na pwede namang wala sa buhay ko “

17. “hinahanap mo nga ba ako o ang kawalan ko?”

18. “hindi dahil sa hindi mo naiintindihan ang isang bagay ay kasinungalingan na ito. at hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohanan. “

19. “Kumain ka na ng siopao na may palamang pusa o maglakad sa bubog nang nakayapak, pero wag na wag kang susubok mag-drugs. Kung hindi mo kayang umiwas, humingi ka ng tulong sa mga magulang mo dahil alam nila kung saan ang mga murang supplier at hindi ka nila iisahan.”

20. “Mag-aral maigi. Kung titigil ka sa pag-aaral, manghihinayang ka pagtanda mo dahil hindi mo naranasan ang kakaibang ligayang dulot ng mga araw na walang pasok o suspendido ang klase o absent ang teacher. (Haaay, sarap!).”

21. “Mangarap ka at abutin mo. Wag mong sisihin ang sira mong pamilya, palpak mong syota, pilay mong tuta, o mga lumilipad na ipis. Kung may pagkukulang sa’yo mga magulang mo, pwde kang manisi at maging rebelde. Tumigil ka sa pag-aaral, mag-asawa ka, mag-drugs ka, magpakulay ka ng buhok sa kili-kili. Sa banding huli, ikaw din ang biktima. Rebeldeng walang napatunayan at bait sa sarili.”

AKO PA ANG SINUNGALING NGAYON?

anu bang privacy ang hinahanap at pinagsasasabi mo? alam ko hindi mo ginustong tulungan kita...ako lang ang nagmatigas na tumulong..kusang loob lang dahil ayoko lang mamatay ka, tapos you're telling me that i had invaded your privacy? una sa lahat di ko chinizmiz LANG yun...kaibigan mo yun and that they need to know...i guess minasama mo lang at idedeny mo pa...actually dineny mo na...pati ako...so lumabas na sinungaling pa ako...alam mo ang totoo...kaya next time na magpapakamatay ka hindi na ako makikialam...i did my part na...baka next time sisihin mo pa ako ulit na sa lagay na patay ka na itatakbo na naman kita sa hospital...hindi na...hindi mo naman talaga ako kaibigan eh..pero nagmalasakit lang ako ng nagtext ka na uminom ka ng 50 capsules dahil nga problema mo boyfriend mo at gusto mo ng mamatay...nahanap ko nga bahay nyo kahit diko alam kung saang sulok yun eh...hindi ko sinusumbat pero para yun lang idedeny mo pa? sa lagay ba naman kung namatay ka sa tingin mo may privacy ka pa nun? wala! dahil ikatatlong gabi mo na ngayon baka sisihin pa ako ng tropa mo kung hindi ako rumespunde sa text message mo...nawalan ako ng gana...nakakasakit ng loob na WALA NAMAN AKONG IBANG PAKAY para magFeeling Super Hero kung bakit nakwento ko kay kuya Leo yung ginawa mo...nadinig lang ni manager (henry) na TROPA mo din...they just wanted to know what happened...ngayon kung may mali man ako hindi ko yun sinasadya pero para gawin mo akong mukang tanga ang sinungaling goodluck na lang sa next suicide attempt mo...hindi na kita pipigilan sa trip mo.anu bang sinasabi mong DOBLE ANG DILA ng mga tiga gym? whatever po!

TAKE NOTE PO HINDI AKO SINUNGALING O CHISMOSA O FEELING SUPER HERO.... KAIBIGAN KASI TURING KO SAYO KAYA KO GINAWA YUN AT KUNG NKWENTO KO KAY KUYA LEO AT HENRY HINDI KO GUSTONG ICHISMIS KA...TROPA MU YUN...PASENSYA!

havoc

i was shocked and crying last night when a friend of mine sent me an SMS (text) saying that she took 50pcs tablets (amoxicilin and cefalexin) I was shocked because at first i Thought she was kidding though i knew she's already problematic but i think she won't do anything like that until she was like saying goodbye already and i was like what the f*ck is she talking about so what i did is talk to her and like tell her that k*lling her self won't do any good so i rush into her house though i haven't been there with my cousins, we search for her house and found it, i found her lying on her bed groggy and the vinyl was full of vomits and there were like 80 opened capsules of different kind vulgarly tossed around her bed and the smell of her room was like the hospital, bad odor smell of medicine! i was like sh*t what are you trying to prove! i convinced her to go to the hospital and she was like i really wanna die just leave the h*ll out of me, and i was like f*ck! i can't let you go to h*ll this way...(hehe) until i convinced her to go the hospital, we rushed her to the doctor first but the doctor said she needs to go to the hospital already and so we went to the public hospital around 9pm and we are like fr**king the h*ll out of her insanity! he doctor said she is needed to be confine but she insisted not to, so we went home around almost 12 midnight and thanks God she survived the attempt, I just wished that she won't do anything like it AGAIN! ate Ana Veronica I know how much you love him (Andong), but killing yourself won't make him love you more especially if you're a dead meat already...I Love you ate...I'm just here...

ANOTHER PACMAN VICTORY

TO fight against a big name like Oscar De La Hoya was already a dream come true for Manny Pacquiao. And to win against boxing’s “Golden Boy” would make it sweeter.

Pacquiao accomplished the sweeter feat as the world lightweight champion fashioned out an impressive eighth-round TKO victory over the legendary De La Hoya on Sunday (Philippine time) in their cross-divisional “Dream Match” at the MGM Grand Garden Arena in Las Vegas, Nevada, USA.

The Filipino boxing icon started strong right at the opening bell to dictate the tempo of the match.

Pacquiao continued his onslaught in the next round, landing several lefts to the face of the former six-division champion, and never let up.

De La Hoya demonstrated a bit of his skills in the fifth round only to be peppered anew thereafter.

Pacquiao, who refused to be called “The Mexicutioner”, was indeed a Mexicutioner as he battered De La Hoya into a corner and made a punching bag out of the bigger and taller Mexican-American that swelled the latter’s eye shut in the seventh round.

Round 8 was likewise an all-Pacquiao show as he went on throwing lefts and rights on a somewhat resigned De La Hoya, whose corner threw in the towel after the round.

Pacquiao also made boxing history by winning in three different weight divisions in one year. He edged junior-lightweight rival Juan Manuel Marquez in March and stopped lightweight David Diaz in the ninth round in June.

The triumph improved the “Pacman’s” win-loss-draw record to 47-3-2, while it was the “Golden Boy’s” sixth defeat in 45 fights.

“Manny Pacquiao is a great fighter,” the 35-year-old De La Hoya said. “He deserves all the credits in the world. We fight a tremendous fight and he was a better man and he deserves all the accolades and he deserves everything that he has accomplished and I wish him all the best.”

In response, Pacquiao, who stands to get $11 million (roughly P540 million) from this fight, said: “Whatever happens you are still my idol.”

The fight was so lopsided and De La Hoya looked so inept that it could spell the end for boxing's richest and most marketable star.

De La Hoya, however, said: “My heart still wants to fight that’s for sure. But when you can no longer respond, then what can you do. We’ll see what happens. I love the sport. When it’s not your night and a true champion like Manny beats you, obviously there is another day tomorrow.”

It was really a day of stoppages as five of the scheduled seven supporting bouts also came out abbreviated.

Victor Ortiz of Oxnard, California stopped Jeffrey Resto in the second round to keep his North American Boxing Organization junior-welterweight championship in the main supporting event.

Ortiz went to work right at the opening bell and floored Resto twice with solid punches to the face and body. The defending champion continued his onslaught in the second canto and scored a technical-knockout victory in 1:19.

The win improved Ortiz’s win-loss-draw record to 23-1-1.

World Boxing Organization junior-featherweight champion Juan Manuel Lopez of Caguas, Puerto Rico likewise retained his title via a first-round TKO win over Sergio Medina of Salta, Argentina.

Lopez downed Medina thrice, prompting the referee to stop the fight 1:38 in the opening round.

It was Lopez’s 24th straight win in as many bouts, while Medina suffered his second loss in 35 fights.

In the bout of super-middleweights, unbeaten Daniel Jacobs of Brooklyn, New York scored his 12th KO in 13 fights by stopping Victor Lares 2:44 of the second round. Lares dropped his record to 14-4.

Earlier, Adrien Broner and Roberto Marroquin also scored early stoppages against their respective opponents.

Broner stopped Scott Furney in the first round of the second bout, while Marroquin knocked out Isaac Hidalgo also in the opening stage of the curtain-raiser.

In the other bouts, junior-welterweight Danny Garcia outpointed Jose Alfredo Lugo in the fourth fight of the night and Jose Angel Beranza, in the third match, beat erstwhile undefeated Jesus Rojas via unanimous decision.(Sunnex)



http://www.sunstar.com.ph/network/pacquiao-de-la-hoya%E2%80%99s-nightmare

NAK NG PONCHO

never try to hide your feelings for someone AGAIN... cause you weren't good in lying. nakita mo ginawa mo ... pitong taon pinataw mong paghihirap sakin! ANAK NG PONCHO.

TWILIGHT

Edward: "If I could dream at all, it would be about you. And I’m not ashamed of it."

Tragic Love Story: The Missing Rib

A girl in love asked her boyfriend.

Girl: Tell me. Who do you love most in this world?

Boy: You, of course!

Girl: In your heart, what am I to you?

Boy: The boy thought for a moment and looked intently in her eyes and said, "You are my rib. It was said that God saw that Adam was lonely, during his sleep, God took one of Adam's rib and created Eve. Every man has been searching for his missing rib, only when you find the woman of your life, you'll no longer feel the lingering ache in your heart."

After their wedding, the couple had a sweet and happy life for a while.

However, the youthful couple began to drift apart due to the busy schedule of life and the never-ending worries of daily problems, their life became mundane.

All the challenges posed by the harsh realities of life began to gnaw away their dreams and love for each other. The couple began to have more quarrels and each quarrel became more heated.

One day, after the quarrel, the girl ran out of the house. At the opposite side of the road, she shouted, "You don't love me!"

The boy hated her childishness and out of impulse, retorted, "Maybe, it was a mistake for us to be together! You were never my missing rib!"

Suddenly, she turned quiet and stood there for a long while. He regretted what he said but words spoken are like thrown away water, you can never take it back. With tears, she went home to pack her things and was determined in breaking-up.

Before she left the house, "If I'm really not your missing rib, please let me go." She continued, "It is less painful this way. Let us go on our separate ways and search for our own partners."

Five years went by...

He never remarried but he had tried to find out about her life indirectly. She had left the country and back. She had married a foreigner and divorced. He felt anguished that she never waited for him.

In the dark and lonely night, he lit his cigarette and felt the lingering ache in his heart. He couldn't bring himself to admit that he was missing her.

One day, they finally met. At the airport, a place where there were many reunions and good byes. He was going away on a business trip. She was standing there alone, with just the security door separating them. She smiled at him gently.

Boy: How are you?

Girl: I'm fine. How about you? Have you found your missing rib?

Boy: No.

Girl: I'll be flying to New York in the next flight.

Boy: I'll be back in 2 weeks time. Give me a call when you are back. You know my number. Nothing has changed.

With a smile, she turned around and waved good bye.

Good bye...

One week later, he heard of her death. She had perished in New York, in the event that shocked the world.

Midnight, once again, he lit his cigarette. And like before, he felt the lingering ache in his heart. He finally knew. She was the missing rib that he had carelessly broken.

Sometimes, people say things out of moments of fury. Most often than not, the outcome could be disastrous and detrimental. We vent our frustrations 99% at our loved ones. And even though we know that we ought to "think twice and act wisely", it's often easier said than done.

Things happen each day, many of which are beyond our control. Let us treasure every moment and everyone in our lives.

Tomorrow may never come. Give and accept what you have today

'Seize my hand, and we'll rise up high, Love, let this be our anthem until we die.'

'Let this evening be the longest among all, Be with me, we'll stand when all kingdoms fall.' -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- "Do you love me?",with distinguished dread Mark said. "Of course babe.I know you certainly know that I love you.",Stephanie boldly answered. "If I needed to be gone for long,will you miss me?",Mark asked. "Is there something wrong babe?You act so strange.You're starting to scare me.",Stephanie said in a fed-up voice. Mark grabbed Stephanie's hand and kissed it as an answer. "I'm here-nothing to worry about my love.",Stephanie assured Mark. Stephanie then fell asleep on top of Mark's chest as they lie down on a picnic carpet under the starry night. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- That night was different among all.Glittering star-filled skies as the full moon shows itself over the extensive horizon of the never-ending universe.The coldness of the gust of every wind-it chills Mark's spine as Stephanie is in her deepest slumber. As Mark stares at a cluster of stars to the west from his eye-sight a meteorite caught his attention. "Hey,hey babe,wake up,look,a meteorite.",Mark said as he wakes up Stephanie. Then Stephanie woke up wanting to know what Mark has waked her up for. "Oh,it's so beautiful babe.",Stephanie said in bewilderment. Silence held up the panorama for about a minute or two as they watched the meteorite meander over the dim heavens. Stephanie cracked the silence and said,"You know what babe,meteorites are known to grant wishes of the people who sees it.I was a little child then since I first made my wish to a meteorite." "What did you wish for?",Mark asked. "Uh-mm,I forgot.You know,Its been so many years,Stephanie answered. "You?If you were to make a wish,what would it be?",Stephanie added. "I don't believe in wishes babe.",Mark said with a thwarted voice. "C'mon Mark,just try it,nothing would be gone if you do so.",Stephanie said as she grabbed Mark's left arm. Mark just continued staring at the meteorite as it slowly fades out. "Never mind it babe.It's gone.I just wanted you to make a wish,what is so hard with that?",Stephanie said in disappointment. "Yeah.You won.I made a wish before it's gone.",Mark said. "Oh really?!Thank you babe!See,I told you,nothing is gone,its not that hard right?",Stephanie said with a delighted face. "Uh-mm,so what did you wish for?",Stephanie added. "Nothing.I'll just let you know when it came true.I mean,if ever by any chance it came true",Mark said in doubt. "So unfair.Just forget about it babe.It's 4 hours before sunlight,we should get enough sleep by-then.",with a saddened voice,Stephanie said. Mark never answered back,he just continued staring at the skies as Stephanie fell asleep by his side. --------------------------------------------------------------------- Silence once again roofed the whole atmosphere.As the night gets deeper,the colder and more burly the breeze of wind gusts that dried leaves from a fig tree,about few steps away from where they laze,falls and creeps over the grasses of the wide spacious garden. 'If only you knew what I wished for.In doubt,I prayed and begged for that yearning,that one wish I always hoped for,that I would readily do anything for that to come to pass.If only you knew.',Mark's heart cried out. And Mark got a blanket,covered the two of them,so that they would keep warm.Using his arms Mark,grabbed Stephanie close to him,kissed her in the forehead and said,"I love you.I loved you yesterday,today,and until forever I will love you." Then Mark closed his eyes and fell asleep. ------------------------------------------------------------------------- The sunshine were as white as doves spreads their wings as their first light greetings to Mark and Stephanie.They soared up high in the skies and flew from coast-to-coast.The heavens are as ashen as last night's darkness in the other hand. "Babe,wake up.It's daybreak.C'mon let's roast our prepared hot dog and toast the sand which.",Mark said,trying to wake Stephanie up. "Good morning babe.Did you slept well last night?",Stephanie asked Mark as she woked up. "Yeah.Pretty well babe.Come here,breakfast is ready.",Mark answered. "Here you go.Oh be careful it's hot.",Mark said as he handed-over the food. "Wow,thanks babe.Have your breakfast as well.",Stephanie thanked Mark. "Uh babe,I'm going to check out our car.You just stay right here and wait for me.Ok?",Mark said. "Sure babe.Just don't be gone so long.",Stephanie answered. As Mark was walking and about to eat,he felt real dizzy,loosen his grip to the food and it fell.He putted his right hand to his forehead trying to give himself a massage as a relief. "Babe?Is everything ok?",Stephanie asked in concern as she walks towards Mark to check out on him. "Yeah,yeah babe,everything is...",just before Mark finished talking he fell from where he was standing and fainted. "Babe!",Stephanie shouted as she run towards Mark. Stephanie got Mark on her laps and tried waking him up. "Babe!Wake up!C'mon end of the joke,it's not funny anymore Mark!You're making me worry!",Stephanie shouted as she wants to wake Mark up. And still nothing.Mark's face started to pale,his hand as Stephanie held it was never giving a response,his body had given away its weight,making it hard for Stephanie to carry him.Stephanie then,got the car-key from Mark's pocket,carried him to the rigth passenger seat and drove to the nearest hospital about 6 miles away. Minutes have passed and still nothing from Mark.He never woke up,not a single movement From him. "Oh please hold on babe!Were already near the hospital.Everything's going to be fine.",Stephanie cries as she tries to talk to Mark. Time passed by as fast as wind,running after Mark's every heartbeat.Every moment was as precious as a single golden coin in a unfathomable jar full of corroded silver ones.Hours became minutes as minutes became seconds.Stephanie is literary driving in a car race against the undertaker. --------------------------------------------------------------- "What happened to him?",a nurse asked Stephanie as she rushed Mark to the emergency room. "I don't know.He just fainted and I…I don't know!",Stephanie tried to explain. "Ok,We'll take care of him.",the nurse assured. --------------------------------------------------------------------- Stephanie then sat on a sofa just outside the emergency room.She was crying for almost more than an hour.While Mark is inside the emergency room,she can not do anything,but wait,and wait. "How is he Doc?Yeah,I know he's getting well.He used to prank me since then.When is he going home?",Stephanie asked the doctor assertively. "Your boyfriend's condition is serious Stephanie.",the doctor said. "What?!I mean,h-h-how can that be?A while ago we where just...",Stephanie started to cry. "Based on Mark's records,he has stage 3 leukemia.His former personal doctor gave prescriptions and scheduled therapies.Though his family would be that able to handle the given medications,he was the one who refused it.That is why the disease grown and his body collapsed.I would not want to give false hopes for you and Mark's family Stephanie,that is why I wanted you to be ready for anything that may happen.I need to go now Steph and check out on Mark.You better take a rest first.",the doctor explained. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Every color faded away.As Stephanie slowly sits on the corridor's floor,her heart was weeping in so much pain.For every tear that fell,dreams flew outside the window,into the skies and were lost forever.She looked at her left hand and saw the ring. "I give you this ring as a sign of my ever-lasting love,that as its shape,you will never know where it began and when will it end." She remembered that moment,the most romantic scene,where the two of them was Romeo and Juliet.Loves moves in a way that it binds Mark and Stephanie's heart as one.Stephanie gave everything to Mark that night,as a sign of fully devoting herself to her future beloved husband,as Mark offered everything he has,as a sign of full support for his beloved future wife.In a way that blissful moment brought hope,but in the other hand in made her feel more wasted and broken. ------------------------------------------------------------------- As hours of Stephanie's waiting outside Mark's room passed by. "Stephanie,come but do make so much noise.",the doctor called up Stephanie. She hurried like she never got tired of waiting to see him. Stephanie opened the door and slowly walked towards Mark's bed,sat beside him,and held his hand. "Hey babe it's me.Everything is going to be fine.I'm here,I'll stay by your side.",Stephanie whispered. Suddenly,Mark moved his hand as a sign of response to Stephanie's voice. Mark woke up and gave a smile to Stephanie.Even though the pain due to his illness is eminent in Mark's face,that smile made him look better than ever. "B-B-Babe...Remember that wish I made last night that I told you I will tell you when it came true?",Mark said in a anguish voice. A tear fell from Stephanie's eye,hampering her to answer Mark's question.She nodded instead in agree to Mark. "I really hoped that dream to come true.I really prayed for that since the day that I found you Steph.",Mark said. "But babe,why didn't you tell me anything about your condition?Do I not have the right to know it?I'm your girlfriend.Sooner or later I'll be your wife.Why have you not told me?",Stephanie asked Mark. "It's because of my love for you Steph.I didn't want you to worry and to fear.I didn't want us to be bothered by my condition and yet know to ourselves that we can not do anything about it.I wanted us to have relationship that focuses to us,to just you and me,and nothing more.",Mark explained. "But Mark..." "Shh.Stop babe.Last night,what I wished for is that you'll be with me,until the end.",Mark said. Stephanie cried like a river.Heart was almost tearing apart.She held Mark's hand so tight,like she never did before.Every moment that they had together refreshed itself to Stephanie's mind. ------------------------------------------------------------------ She remembered,the scenery was just like that night.The cold breeze of every gust of wind.The view of the heavens and the ashen skies as birds flew freely.She remembered. "Its been 3 years babe,but it always feels like yesterday.",a tear dropped from Stephanie's eyes,never different from that day.The same old tear. "I would always look at my hand whenever I miss you,for there,I see your everlasting love,that as its shape I won't know the beginning and the end.It is so hard Mark,yet I needed to learn how to accept the reality of our love story,beyond our dreams and our plans,never a happy ending.Every night I can't sleep,hoping that one day I would wake up with you by my side,that everything that had happened was just a nightmare.Every night I get cold and longed for your warm arms holding me close to you.I feels so fresh even though its been quite sometimes.Remember that night when I told you I forgot that wish I asked for to a meteorite when I was a child?That wish was to be with the man who would love me for the rest of his life as I lie down my bed until the last breath I take.Meteorites are sometimes unfair it would not always grant wishes for everyone. It's been 3 years babe,and nothing has changed.",Stephanie said as she sits on the grass and looks up in the skies. "Mom! Aren't you done yet? Will you please help fly my kite mom?",Mark called his mom. "He's growing so fast Mark.He is starting to learn new things,how to play the guitar,how make friends with other kids.He looks like you babe,even more every day.It's just you Mark.Every time I look to him,it's just,I see nothing but you babe.The way he talks,the way he cracks a joke,the way he runs,and plays,and laugh,it's just you Mark.I know one day when he finds the girl for him,he will be just like his father,who loved the girl of his life wholeheartedly,and then spent the rest of his life devoting it to loving only that girl.",Stephanie continued taking. "Hey mom!C'mon!Please help me!I don't know how to fly this kite.",Mark shouted as he runs and holds the string of his kite. "Yes dear,I'm coming.",Stephanie stood up,walked towards Mark and they played. ---------------------------------------------------------------------- END. ---------------------------------------------------------------

bob ong

ang tenga kapag pinagdikit korteng puso... Extension ng puso ang tenga kaya kapag marunong kang makinig, marunong kang magmahal.

bleeding love

masyado kang nabulagan sa buwan kaya di mu na nakita ang bituin...di mo man lang naisip na once to thrice a month lang yun lumalabas samantalang ang bituwin kada pagkatapos ng bagyo nililiwanagan ka! getz mo? for sure hindi...full moon e! badtrip ='(

Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love

Free Music

NOVEMBER 2008

November 24, was one of the saddest day of my life...my friend Jap lost his cellphone, i was sad when i didn't found out yet that he lost it because that day he wasn't texting me cause we usually greet each other and like tease each other night and day until someone will cry (that would be me), i was use to that kind of sweetnes he have until he sent me a comment on my friendster saying "Oyen....oyen nwala cp ko knina" i was like what?how?where?when and now what? lol i know i even sound like her girlfriend but i'm not...i'm just one of his girl friends....now it's his second day of not having phone on the twentieth century and i am so sad...though he lost his phone already i was still texting him...haha..i know...i am just used to it...like i was used of eating cadbury...so addictive!

jap amishooooooo...

november 27, someone missed called me and its Jap! he has his Girl friend's phone =D
yehei...

Ang Pinsan kong Berat. (like me) haha

ang pinsan kong kaydai-daing pinagdaraanan
hindi mo maiisip na kanya i2ng mkakayanan
kinalaban ama, ina kapatid maliban sa kaibigan
ng makilala ko ito humanga ako ng lubusan.

o aking sexing pinsan (like me)
sana naman ikaw ay pakinggan
di lamang ng mga taong mahal
pati nadin ng Poong my kapal.

sana naman ikaw ay may natutunan
sa maiksing oras na ating pinagsamahan
nawa'y magtino ka na ng totohanan (like me?)
alalahanin na ang pamilya'y hindi kalaban.

basta palagi mo lamang pakatatandaan
alang binibigay ang Diyos na di kakayanan
pag may problema siya'y iyong tawagan
dika bibiguin at laging ika'y iingatan.

(eheheh--i love you cousin...wag ng berat, have a clean heart and open mind...may dahilan si GOD sa buhay mo tandaan mo yan..mawawala ang lahat ng bagay pero hindi ang pag-ibig pero dapat maging matalino ka din dahil ang puso ay madaya...nagsalita ang magaling ano??hahaha)
GOD BLESS Y'ALL and ung Tagaytay ko ha!ehe..mua

Numbers 32:23.

You have sinned against the Lord; and be sure your sin will find you out.

This text was regularly quoted by my mother. She was right.

Two London women struck up a conversation, and the topic got around to their husbands. They then were seen to rummage in their purses. One pulled out a photo and said, 'That's my husband.' The other did the same - and it was the same man. Result: an ageing ex-romeo arrested for bigamy.

In medieval times, sins were real, and specific. So was hell. These days, we are more prone to feel shame than guilt. As someone put it, 'Sin, that old dynamo, has lost much of its power since we ceased to believe in hell.' We don't call it sin today, said one (honest) cynic, we call it self-expression.

We reap what we sow. If we sin, we are punished not for our sins, so much as by them. And sins cannot be undone, only forgiven.

I will arise and go to my Father and say to him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and against you, and am no longer worthy to be called your child.
My child, your sins are forgiven you. Amen.

by yen

NASASAKTAN NA AKO ULIT KAYA ALAM KO UMIIBIG NA AKONG MULI.

sa oras ng aking pagtatanong ako'y sinagot

Hindi ko rin lubusan maisip kung bakit hirap na hirap na nga ang mga tao ay pilit pang pinagsisiksikan ang nais nilang mangyari, pero sa halip nababalewala lang ang mga ito dahil “Kung hindi nga daw ukol ay hindi bubukol” pero sa isang banda sinasabi naman nila na huwag kang sumuko bagkus iyong labanan…haha kanta ba ito?…kung tutuusin hindi naman dapat magulo ang mundo (ayon lang sa aking pananaw pero kung iyo namang ipipilit ang iyong pananaw na salungat sa akin ay hindi nga tayo magkakaintindihan) dahil kaya nga nilagay ng Diyos ang utak sa ulo hindi sa siko para ito ang maging mas-makapangyarihan sa sitwasyon ng pag-iisip, pumapangalawa lamang ang puso. akin ngang naalala ang isa na kinukunsidera kong guro na si BEM na palagi niyang binabanggit sakin “mind over matter” tama nga naman hindi ba? kasi ang problema kapag nasaling na ang emosyon ng kahit na sinong nilalang hindi na nito pinaiiral ang katalinuhan bagkus ay ang pabuka-bukarang desisyon na kung gustong manapak ay sasapak nalang o kaya naman kung nais manumpa ay bibitiw nalang ng mga masasakit na salita sabay irap! ngunit kung atin nanamang uungkatin ang mga makalumang Ideolohiya (nga ba?) na dapat “pag-isipan munang maigi ang isang bagay bago gawin” pero sa lagay ang nangyayari ay “saka mo na lamang pagsisihan yung mali na magagawa mo…tapos na kasi eh” hindi ba napakagulo ngang talaga? isa pa na pilit namumuwisit sa kukote ko ang palagi ko na lamang nadidinig sa mga tao… “Ang hindi marunong lumingon sa pinanggalingan ay dili makararating sa paroroonan” ngunit saad naman sa isang bersikulo sa Biblia na “Huwag nang llingunin ang nakaraan bagamat magpatuloy na lang” (Filipos 3:12-14). kung ating hihimayhimayin ang mga iba’t-ibang bagay at mga tanong na hanggang ngayon ay ala pa ring kasagutan o kung mayroon mang kasagutan ang imga ito ikaw ba’y maniniwala? dahil hanggang wala sa katinuan ang utak ng isang tao hindi nya maiintindihan ang mga bagay na iginuhit na ng Poong Maykapal sa mundong ito. isa pa na kina-aasar ko ay ang mga masyadong pagmamalaki at pagmamayabang ng mga “ATHEIST” na ipinipilit nilang walang Diyos at hindi sila naniniwala sa anu mang may kaugnayan sa Diyos (ang Diyos na tinutukoy ko ay nagsisimula sa malaking Letra hindi sa maliit na letra na maaari mong bilin sa mga taong naglalako sa kalsada) pero ang totoo binabasa naman nila ang Biblia at ang mas nakakapika pa ay pinipilit nila na madaming maling nakalathala sa Biblia…O sige sabihin mo nga, ikaw na Atheista kung anong mali ang nakasulat sa Bibilia at kung kaninong pamantayan mo ito ibinase? dahil kung sayong isip lamang ito nagmula, mamatay man ako hindi kita paniniwalaan! bakit? dahil kung ikaw nga mismo sa sarili mo madami kang hindi maintindihan at mapaliwanag na bagay na pinipilit mo lamang na ang diyos ay ang sarili mo na ikaw lang ang gumagawa ng sarili mong impierno bakit ako maniniwala sayo? kung ating susumahin isinaad sa Biblia na hindi natin kayang lurukin ang isipan ng Diyos pagkat ang isip ng Diyos ay hindi isip LANG ng isang tao lalo na at katulad mo! oo, maaaring madaming magkakasalungat na bagay sa mundo pero hindi kahulugan noon na mali ang pagkakadisenyo ng Diyos, oo, marahil tayo ang gumagawa ng sarili nating katagumpayan at kapahamakan pero sa dulo’t dulo nito nandun nakatunghay ang Diyos, malamang iyong iniisip na bakit alam naman ng tinutukoy kong Diyos na magkakasala si Eva at Adan at mahuhulog sila sa pita ng kasalanan bakit pinahintulutan pa ito ng Diyos kung talangang alam niya ang lahat ng bagay at pangyayari na wari mo kung gaano kadami ang tao ay ganun din karami ang mata at kamay niya ay bakit pa niya pinahintulutang mangyari ito at tignan mo eto tayo ngayon at nagkakagulo sa mundo ay tanging siya lamang ang nakakaalam a kung ipipilit mo nanaman ang iyong alam eto ang para sa iyo (Isaias 55:8-9) basahin mo.

FRIENDSTER BILANG UTOPIA

(^___^)

merong sinusunod na patakaran sa pag-uumpisa ng isang artikulo at sa mga pagkakataong eto, hindi ako susunod. hindi ako kayang diktahan ng mga sinaunang manunulat kung paano dapat magbahagi ng iniisip, kung kanino dapat magbahagi at hanggang kelan dapat magbahagi. pag binanggit mo sa akin ang salitang dapat, tatanungin ko sayo kung kaninong pamantayan ang pinagbabasehan mo, kung kaninong timbangan ang ginagamit mo, kung saang anggulo ka naroroon at kung saang gawi ka tumitingin. iimbitahin kita saglit na kumuyakoy sa modernong lipunan na eto, malaya kang magdesisyon kong teternuhan mo ng pagyoyosi ang pagbabasa o pansamantala mo munang papanisin ang laway mo habang nakaantabay ka sa mga linyang ihahain ko sayo. malaya ka ring magdesisyon kong papasuin mo ang ngala-ngala mo ng napakainit na kape habang tumatango ka o umiiling.

at kung sakaling may mga paniniwala ako na sumasalungat ng sagad sa paniniwala mo, hindi matatapos dun ang pagdidiskurso natin. dahil baka may dalawang pisngi ang katotohanan. baka pareho tayong may pinupunto. hindi kinakailangan na ang kultura ko ay maging kultura mo rin bago tayo maggalangan. isang bagay lang ang hihilingin ko sayo kung sakaling sumalungat ka. at ang paghiling na yan ay alang kinalaman sa kapakanan ko kundi sa pakinabang na pwede mong makuha sa pamamagitan ng pagpapaunlad mo ng pagkatao mo. isagad mo ang pagpapahalaga sa komunikasyon, sa diskurso, sa pagbubukas ng malawak na isip para mabigyang linaw ang mga bagay na malabo. hindi kumukupas ang saysay ng binitiwang mga salita ni socrates, ang itinuring na pinakamatalinong tao ng kanyang panahon…"hindi buhay ng tao ang buhay na hindi kinikilatis…" at ang pangingilatis ay isang mahabang proseso. hindi basta kumurap ka ay may sagot na sa mga tanong na nakabalandra sa utak mo. ang paghahanap ng sagot ay isang bagay na ikaw lang ang makakagawa maski na nga ba ang sagot ay pwedeng magmula sa iba. dahil kahit na maghain ang iba ng sagot, ikaw at ikaw pa rin ang magpapasya kung yun ba ang sagot na tumutugon sa mga tanong mo. at kung sakaling isinagad mo na ang pagtatanong at tenernuhan mo pa ng tambling ang paghahanap mo ng sagot pero ang tanging nakukuha mong sagot ay "ewan", makahalata ka na na kelangan mo nang lumubay kakatanong. pilitin mo na lang na tanggapin sa sarili mo na may mga pagkakataon na ang katotohan ay abot-tanaw lang. kahit na panginoonin mo pa ang katotohan kung talagang iilag yan ng sagad, hinding hindi mo sya mahuhuli. ang tawag dyan sa pilosopiya ay "aletheia"…ang paglubog-litaw ng katotohanan.

sa hindi maipaliwanag na dahilan, marami ang nagtataka kung baket ko pinapatulan ang friendster. marami ang nagsasabi na sinasabunutan nila ang sarili nila dahil hindi nila akalain na bibigyan ko ng panahon ang pakikipag-ugnayan sa mga tao sa pamamagitan ng "lipunang" eto. at para bang bawal ako dito. haha. pag-aaral ng lipunan at ng tao ang pinakapaborito kong gawin kaya ang paglilibot ko sa modernong lipunan na eto ay hindi na dapat pang pagtakhan.

magkakaroon ng hindi iniiwasang paghahambing. kagaya ng nabanggit ko sa ilang sulok ng profile ko, "ang friendster ay isang komunidad na tumutugon sa pangarap ng lahat na maging bida…eto ay ang utopia o ang pangarap na lipunan ng bawat isa…lahat bida, lahat makapangyarihan…kapitan ka ng sarili mong profile maski na hindi ka pa dumaan sa eleksyon." pwede ring maging konsehal mo ang mga kaibigan mo at maging konsehal ka rin nila. pero sideline lang ang pagiging konsehal, alalahanin mo na me kanya-kanya kayong barangay profile na pinamamahalaan.

kung natatandaan mo pa ang kasaysayan, nong araw ay merong umalohokan, ang tagapagpalaganap ng mensahe ng kapitan…kadalasan ang panawagan ay tungkol sa magaganap na pulong sa plaza. pag di ka nagpunta, kakailanganin mong magmulta o di kayay tanggapin mo ang paratang na ala kang pakikisama. pero sa modernong pamayanan ng friendster, maski na isang dosenang beses pa magpost ng iisang announcement ang kahit sino, maski manawagan pa sya ng sagad, kung ayaw mong rumesponde ay ayaw mo lang. pwedeng magbulag-bulagan, pwedeng magbingi-bingihan ng alang matatamong parusa.

hindi maikakaila na eto ang pinakamatao at pinakamodernong komunidad na daluyan din ng tsismis. syempre kung alang sunog, alang usok o kaya pwede mo ring baliktarin, kung alang usok, alang sunog. tatanungin mo pa ba kung alin ang nauuna, sunog ba o usok. kung malaman mo ang sagot ay ano naman.

halatang halata rin kung sino ang mga mahilig magpasikat sa friendster. nakabalandra ang mga litrato na pruweba ng mga masasaya pero nakakabutas ng bulsang mga lakwatsa. mga eksena sa europe, bora o maski bartek-bartekan lang sa kanto sabay tinernuhan ng caption na "please release me, let me go…hahaha". me mga nagpapakita rin ng mga laman ng aparador, ref at kung anu-ano pa. parang handang handa silang magbahagi ng biyaya pero hindi, ipinapasilip lang. inggit ka, belat. haha.

may mga sagad din sa pagiging mapamaraan. kung ang pangalan ay nagsisimula sa letrang z, abay nauuna pa sa pila kesa sa ang pangalan ay nagsisimula sa letrang a. nakow, ayan naman pala tinadtad ng gitling at kung anupang mga characters ang simula ng pangalan. mga alang galang sa alphabetical order ang mga luka-luka. haha. at bat ako nagrereklamo? dahil ba b ang simula ng pangalan ko at nasisiko na nya si letrang a? haha. at maski magmenos ako sa gitling o maski na anong characters, isa pa rin ako sa mga unang makikita kung alang mga pasaway sa pila. haha. eh syempre makikita na ko sa dulo kung lahat ay gagamit na ng singhaba ng sampayan na puro gitling at kudlit na ikakambal sa mga pangalan nila. at bat parang kabado ako sa posibilidad na yan. haha. eh kung bakuna kaya ang pipilahan nyo, magpapasaklolo pa kaya kayo sa mga gitling at kudlit na yan. halata bang masama ang loob ko sa mga gumagamit ng gitling at kudlit. haha.

kapadong kapado ko rin kung sino ang mga hindi sumusunod sa patakaran. halatang halata yung mga handang lumambitin sa bakod maski na nga ba me nakapaskil na ‘gamitin ang gate." ang mga mensahe ay dinadala sa hirela ng mga testimonials. hi ganyan, hi ganito, maglakwatsa tayo sa bora, gale at tumambling tayo sa mga buhangin, sana wag tayong mapwing. o kaya hi ganyan, ganyan ganito, laklakan tayo sa malate, eklat eklat. o kaya nood naman tayo ng concert. hahaha. nag-uulat talaga sa mga kaganapan sa mga buhay nila. approve naman ng approve basta ganyang mga pagpapasikat. pero pag ang laman ng testi ay tungkol sa amoy bullfrog na bibig pag umaga o di kaya’y alipungang ayaw gumaling anumang pilit maski pa kaskasin ng kung anek anek o di kaya’y ang hindi sinasadyang pagkakaihi sa bedsheet maski na tapos ng mag-debut, pustahan tayo maski iulit-ulit mo pang ipadala yun, hindi maaaprubahan. parang kung lacoste ang blouse mo, gustong gusto mong ipinapakitang nakasampay, pero pag me tatak lang na carnation evap o di kaya’y mr. clean, halos takpan mo ng twalya sa sampayan pag me bisita, sukdulang sa isang linggo na sya matuyo, maski na nga ba magkaroon pa sya ng lagulamin…alam mo ang tagulamin? di ko alam kung tagulamin o tagulamig. eto yung parang mga blackheads na dumadapo sa mga damit. gets? o kaya hahayaan mo na lang sya sa sampayan sabay sabing, "kanino ba to?" nagmimistula kang umutot na naninindigan sa hindi pag-amin. nagpapanggap kang galit sa amoy na yun pero ang totoo non, sa bituka mo galing ang amoy na yun. at ang pinakamahinang magpanggap na syang inosente ang pangunahing suspek. dito palang sa simpleng bagay na eto, hindi pa tayo lumalayo, burado na ang hustisya. haha.

me mga hayok na hayok din sa PDA. yung tipong ipinatatanaw nila sa sambayanan ang detalye ng pagbubuhol ng mga kaluluwa nila. haha. at sa mga litrato, nagbubundulan ang mga ulo. o kaya naman ay hubad ang mga katawan na nasa isang kwarto sabay deny na naabot na ang langit. haha. at kung magselosan, halos ultimong libag ng bawat isa hindi pwedeng mapunta sa iba. at nagsusumigaw sa mga caption na ang mundong kinabibilangan nila ay para sa kanilang dalawa lang, wala tayong pakialam kung isang linggo palang silang magkakilala. haha. at pag naghiwalay matapos ang ilang mga linggong nag-untugan ng mga baso at nagbuhat ng sabay ng mga mabibigat na mga kubyertos, halos magnana ang mga mata kakangawngaw, halos basagin ang eardrums kakapakinig sa kantang "how do you heal a broken heart" ni chris walker o kaya "art of letting go" ni mikaila, at halos titigan lahat ng mga letra sa google tungkol sa kung paano sisikaping itakwil sa alaala ang taong kelan lang ay nagmistulang anghel sa buhay mo. at kung dati halos sa paningin mo ay tinubuan sya ng mga pakpak sa kilikili, ngayon ang tingin mo sa kanya ay may dalawang sungay na singtalim ng blade ang mga dulo. at dahil sa hindi ka makapagpigil sa pagsasambulat mo ng emosyon mo, kinukulay-kulayan mo pa ang profile mo. me paggamit ng mga simbolo para maghayag ng damdamin. meron akong nakikitang mga bungo, babaeng me luha na sumisipa ng tuyong dahon, lalakeng me hawak na puso sa palad nya, umaagos ang dugo sa braso nya habang halos yakapin nya ang mga tuhod nya, kulang na lang makakita ako ng mga imahe ng mga ataol dito sa friendster.

maraming pwedeng masaksihang kopya ng mga eksena sa friendster. tinawag ko syang kopya dahil lahat ng nandyan ay pawang duplicate lang ng tunay na eksena. at pag duplicate na lang yan, hindi sya singlinaw ng tunay na eksena. ang makikita ay ang gustong ipakita ng magpapakita. parang ngayon, eto nga bang mga letrang eto ang produkto ng pinakamalalim na pag-iisip ko o eto lang ang mga klase ng pag-iisip na gusto kong ipakita sayo. ang imahe nga ba tungkol sa pagkatao ko na nabubuo sa balintataw mo ngayon base sa mga ideyang ipinapasilip ko sayo ang tunay na ako o yan lang ang imahe na gusto kong buuin mo. ako lang ang tanging nakakaalam ng sagot at anuman ang gawin mo kung hindi ko ipapakita sayo ang sagot ay walang magaganap na pagtuklas sa katotohan. ang ipinupunto ko ay hindi mo dapat ipagluksa ang di mo pagkakaroon ng sagot sa lahat ng mga tanong mo, gaano man kahalaga ang mga yan.

marami rin akong nababasang isinisigaw ng mga tao dito sa friendster. may mga tungkol sa paghahayag ng pananampalataya, pag-ibig at kung anu-ano pa gamit ang mga iba’t ibang uri ng mga bagay(gaya ng ulap, bahaghari, bituwin, araw, at kung anek anek pa) na syang naglalarawan sa mga iniisip nila at nararamdaman. anumang emosyon ay diktado ng utak. ang sakit ay maaaring katotohanan o ilusyon lang. kaya ka nasasaktan ay dahil dinidisyunan mong masaktan. hindi ka kayang saktan ng iba ng ala kang pahintulot dahil ang mga may kakayahan lang na makasugat sa damdamin mo ay ang mga taong may bilang sa pagkatao mo. kung ayaw mo nang patuloy kang saktan ng isang tao ay ala kang unang dapat gawin kundi burahin ang halaga nya sayo. at bago mo gawin yan ay dadaan ka sa proseso ng pagtitimbang. gagamit ka ng talino sa pagpapasya. at pag meron ka pang pagdududa sa pasyang binubuo mo, nangangahulugan lang na may mga bagay pa na hindi malinaw at kailangan mo pa ng sapat na panahon para mag-isip. ang lahat ng mga bagay na nagaganap sa buhay mo ay produkto ng mga nakaraan o maaaring kasalukuyang pagpapasya. walang anumang pagpapasya para sa sarili mong buhay ang hindi dumaan sa pagbibigay mo ng sarili mong pasya. ke pinili mong magpasya o hinayaan mo ang iba na magpasya para sayo, pareho lang yan - may pakikilahok ka sa pagbuo ng pasya.

kapag inimbitahan kita na mag-usap tayo tungkol sa mga bagay na hindi malinaw sa akin, ang ibig sabihin non ay kinikilala ko na may kakayahan kang magbahagi ng tanglaw. sa pagkilatis ko ng mga bagay-bagay, pwedeng hindi ko makita ang gusto mong makita ko, hindi ko marinig ang nagsusumigaw na mga damdamin mo…dahil minsan ang liwanag na nanggagaling sa mga ubod ng linaw na mga bagay ay nagmimistulang liwanag ng araw na mahirap titigan…

kapag inaya kita para sabay nating paunlarin ang mga sarili natin, hindi kita inaaya dahil sa mga bagay na pansamantala…wala akong pakialam kung may potensyal na agarang magmistulang pasas ang balat mo…ala akong pakialam kung maglalaglagan ang mga ngipin mo mula sa gilagid mo at pag kumain ka ng piattos ay wasak sya dahil sa tulis ng sitsirya…wala akong pakialam kung igulong mo ang kulangot mo sa balat ko…wala akong pakialam kung ni singkong duling ay hindi mo kayang ibahagi…dahil alam ko na hindi tayo tulad ng iba…dahil alam ko na tanaw natin ang kaluluwa ng bawat isa…

ngayon sumang-ayon ka sa akin na masyadong maliwanag ang araw, mahirap titigan…at ng dahil dyan, merong naganap na pagbaba sa baitang ng pagpapakatao…merong mga paglabag sa mga karapatan…at kung sino ang may kakayahang umalalay ay syang humalik sa pagwawakas…

sinong mas mahalaga?

Sino ba ang mas mahalaga… Ang taong
mahal mo o ang taong gusto mong
mahalin? Ang taong kasama mo buong
araw o ang taong iniicip mo bago
matapos ang araw? Siya bang
kasakasama mo sa lhat ng ginagawa
mo o siyang dahilan ng lahat ng galaw at
ginagawa mo? Sino ba ang mas
mhalaga…Ung taong nais mong
makasama habang buhay o ung taong
hindi mo makita ang habang buhay
kapag wala siya?cno ang mas
matimbang? Ung taong pag kasama
mo’y parang kay bilis ng oras o ung
taong tuwing iniicp mo’y parang kay
bagal ng oras? Ano ang susundin
mo… Ang dinidikta mo sa puso mo o ang
dinidikta ng puso mo syo? Siya ba un
laging pumapasok sa icp mo o cya un
laging laman ng panaginip mo? Sino nga
ba…ang taong nagpaluha syo, o ang
taong nagpunas sa minsang pagluha
mo? Sino sa kanila…ang taong
nagpapatawa syo o ang taong dahilan ng
lahat ng iyong emosyon? Sino nga bang
pipiliin mo?? ANG TAONG MULING
NAGBUKAS NG PUSO MO? O ANG TAONG MATAGAL NG NANDOON..

What a boyfriend would do….

by jeoffrey:

• Grab her neck when you kiss her, it’s a real turn on. Not her butt/boobs.

• Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything.

• When she’s mad hug her tight and don’t let go then kiss her

• When she says she’s ok dont believe it talk with her

• Never cheat on her because 10 yrs later she’ll remember you

• Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

• Call her before you sleep and after you wake up

• Treat her like a person and not something to show off for

• Tease her and let her tease you back.

• Stay up all night with her when she’s sick.

• Watch her favorite movie with her.

• TRUST HER WITH HER GUY FRIENDS

• Let her wear your clothes.

• When she’s bored and sad, hang out with her.

• Let her know she’s important.

• Kiss her in the pouring rain.

• When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;
"Who’s ass am I kicking babe?"

This one's for you

When I get all my expectations

I get Pumped up with blood circulation

The things you say remove agitation

I gotta be healthy, eat vegetation

My attitude uses up my duration

You Only live once, expect opposition

Don't get what you want? It's just a delay.

Not having any patience, will take life away.

Enjoy your time even in a tough day.

Listen to what Jesus has to say.

Don't worry bout tomorrow,

your God the fathers in the know.

This conversations over,

sorry I gotta go.

Dear Oliver

I can't understand you
and the things you were trying to prove
that every time you were falling for me
you're stopping yourself from letting things be


why do you keep on hurting me so
cause I didn't know what to do anymore
for I have thought of us as lovers some time
though the only thing that is lacking is me saying I do...be mine


I hope that you'll move on and forget things about her
and that soon you'll realize my existence dear Oliver
cause I have fought for you long time before
hope that you'll fight for me now much more


(this poem is dedicated to YOU...I think you know who you are...I'm sorry I have fallen for you already)

my creepy birthday party (10-30-08)

i had the most creepiest one (i think) lol... because my cousins and i acctualy planned on celebrating my birthday swimming, but because the weather didn't get along with our plans we just stayed home till the rain stopped and on the afternoon of the 30th of October we went to the cemetery...yes we visited our grannies (dead ofcorz) and we had fun actually a happy creepy birthday celebration! hahah! and that evening we had BBQ (complements of dearez-Swa) and SISIG (part2) and ICE CREAM and CREMA DE FRUTA (complements by jhel and Erick) i just wanna thank my cousins my tito and tita and my mudra for completing my day! to my ever beloved ate and paul and kuya jason and my whole family my friends who greeted me through mails and sms and fs and personally, the Bethanians, and the Staffs! and on the 31st day we celebrated our HALLOWEEN in the pool finally! (pahabol) hahah! it was fun and yesterday we re-visited cemetery (NOV1) and there you go...tired...and exhausted...lol... it's all fun...i love my cousins and my whole family...kahit sa mga hindi nakapunta...okay lang...next time try nyo ju-moin...wahahahahahah!!! i love my cousins...Thank you for making my day! till next time!


(btw...i was so happy when HE texted like 5min. before my birthday, he is one of those person who greeted me that night...i was touched on what he said...it was so sweet...eeehhhkk)

got pissed with a 15 y.o MEAN GIRL

hi, just wanna say i was the 1 who posted the shout out in Michelle's FS, she sms me saying that you really got a problem on what i have posted? uhmmm look i don't know you or your records and i really don't wanna know but lemme tell you something straight...COULD YOU PLEASE ASK WHAT JUST HAPPENED BEFORE YOU LIKE POST ANY COMMENT ON MICH'S FS or any other people's comment box? coz i think you know not what has happened and i don't think that you should know and you know what you really got an attitude problem coz you know it is not proper to like butt-in in a thing you don't know or else you'd end up like an uneducated human, if i'm not mistaken isn't it that you are studying in a Catholic School? don't they teach you something like having a right manner or stuff like that? girl all i can say is that NO MATTER HOW INTELLIGENT YOU ARE IF YOU GOT AN ATTITUDE PROBLEM LIKE WHAT I WAS SAYING (nakikisabat ng hindi alam ang puno't dulo) or you'll end up more than a fool. ( I'm sure tinuro din ng parents mo na huwag kng sasabat db?)hindi kita papatulan dahil bata ka at isa pa wala ka pa namang sapat na kakayahan at experience para makipagtalakayan sa isang MAHUSAY pero dahil ako ang nag-post ng shout out ni mich kaya parang ako ang tinira mo! uhm isa pa hindi ko ugali at inuugali yung inugali mong ganon.bad...really bad... PAMELA SHANDRA CAYABYAB know me...you should ask her. bata ka pa...madami ka pang malalaman at matututunan, hindi porket may alam ka na at top student ka akala mo na e magaling na magaling ka na...no girl...learning is continuous, the more you think you know a lot that's when you'll learn you know nothing at all, ako nga eh grumaduate at grumaduate never akong nagmalaki kahit na successful na ako, hindi kasi mainam yung ganung ugali, YOU CAN SUGGEST but NEVER INSIST! dapat yan ang matutunan mo. wag kang magalit kay Mich or sa'kin, I'm just teaching you something i think you didn't learn inside your SCHOOL.

just so you know kaya ko piNost yun sa FS ni mich someone accused her something that is very malicious at lalake yung gumawa nun, the thing is yung guy na yun is very mean, he was like stating things, vulgar ones, but take note he's posted his messages in wrong grammar, mich ask for my help to like keep her PRO private and erase that boy on her Frenzlist...and then you commented on my shout out. i know you mean nothing but YOU COULD HAVE ASKED FIRST kung ano ang puno't dulo right? but you didn't and i felt like being insulted but bec. you are a 15 y.o proud girl i'll have to give you the benefit of my doubt.

THANK YOU,pls tell Pamela we missed her and I ain't mad anymore to you. so cheer girl.

PROVE MYSELF WRONG

"Science without religion is lame, religion without science is blind." - Albert Einstein

Most people, even if they call themselves Christians, would not take one step and try to test their own faith. Jesus said that you should examine yourself to see if you are really in the faith.

Most people are afraid of facts against their specific group or religious practice and belief simply because they think they are fighting God.. YOU ARE NOT FIGHTING GOD! Even though you can find every religion on the planet to be wrong, God is still right. You do not have to abandon God if you need to abandon something wrong.

So, what about your beliefs have you not questioned yet? (If you don't know where to start, find someone who disagrees with you!)

My mentor once told me. If you want your faith to grow stronger, try to disprove it yourself. -John Hudson (Probably quoting someone else HAHA)