Tuesday, May 26, 2009

If Only



If Only:

If He only knew how much I Love Him
Maybe He would stop hurting me
If He only knew how much he means to me
Then maybe He'd not let these tears from falling

If He only knew that He is my life
Maybe then He could not let me from dying
If He only knew that He is my everything
Then maybe He would not let this things from happening

If Only... He'll love me the way I Love Him
Maybe then He'll knew how I am feeling
If only He'll realize all of these things I am saying
Maybe then He'd be head over heels falling

...If Only


5-27-09
for my honey

piCtuRe diAry EntRy

yesterday we went to campo quatro to cut ourselves some slack one more time! hahaha!






uhmm actually last last saturday we went to pantabangan, nueva ecija to road test our baby "kechup". we had fun, actually a very funny experience cause our baby kechup went flat on a rough road uphill place on our way back home... hehehe... my honey and i went walking our baby 3 or almost 5 kilometers down the hill! dude it was one of a kind mind blowing experience. here are some of the pictures while on our trip. lolz.









Sunday, May 24, 2009

MY DREAM WEDDING... haist how I wish Lord!

Shhhh... Keep your voice down low... these plans are just my secret... lol...

I was browsing the web a while ago and I end up at Monique Lhuillier and Vera Wang Site... Darn! can't help but to dream my own wedding! hahaha... funny I know... uhmmm how I wish to have my wedding dream come true... here's the list and some run down. hehehehe.. I hope to get this! so here's the wedding catch!

Wedding Proposal:
Hopefully He'd Propose by the shore early morning, like he'll wake me up while the sun is still asleep and take me beside the beach and we'll wait till the sun comes up and then he'll be on his knees with this plum sapphire stoned engagement ring or could be in a sunset pouring rain with a rare type opal based diamond surrounded engagement ring while asking me " honey you won't mind if I'll walk you here next month on a white wedding dress then spend the rest of my life walking with you would you?" (haha... sweet!) probably I'll cry my tears out answering YES HONEY I WON'T MIND SPENDING THE REST OF MY LIFE WALKING WITH YOU, AND YES I WOULD MARRY YOU! YES YES YES! darn it! i can't help but get excited... lolz.. i know i know funny huh? (my boyfriend doesn't even want to get married yet though any time soon... how sad... haissssssssst... pathetic me...lol... just kidding... i'm just dreaming ok!)

Wedding Motif A:

A Golden amber or almost yellow one

Wedding Motif B:

Plum and pearl white

Wedding Venue A:

Sunrise Wedding by the Beach Shore

Wedding Venue B:

A Hilltop Garden view in a very nice Resort

Wedding Gown A:


Wedding Gown B:



Wedding Cake A:


Wedding Cake B:


Wedding Flowers A:


Wedding Flower B:


Wedding Hair A:


Wedding Hair B:


Wedding Slip Ons:

Wedding Flip Flops

Wedding Song A:

Pachelbel's Canon in D Major

Wedding Song B:

Feels Like Home- Chantal Kreviazuk

Ha ha.. Okay i know i know... every thing seems to be all planned BY ME already huh? but to remind you these are just my dreams so if by chance that I am about to marry at least I already have an Idea of what i want cause I have envisioned of it already.


I WISH MY HONEY WOULD TURN MY DREAM WEDDING INTO R-E-A-L-I-T-Y

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Feels like home

Okay here I go again. I just really want the world to know how much I Love my Boyfriend. I just want the whole world to see how this love I have for him is as bright as the burning rays of sun. I am so happy every time we're together even though we've had a rough start as you guys can read all through out my blog. Every time I am about to think of those days I can't help but cry, cause I almost gave up on him, I almost gave up of this love. I cry every time I remember how he used to hurt me and yet I continue to allow him to hurt me. I remember how he use to lie and send me text messages that he is suppose to send "HER". It hurts and frighten me especially when we are fighting over the same thing over and over again because I LOVE HIM SO MUCH that I was able to give in everything that I am, I LOVE HIM SO DEAR that I forgive him over and over again, I LOVE HIM MORE THAN ANY THING IN THIS WORLD that I did fight for my Love for him, even though until now I am still hurting. like right now, I am crying because I can't believe that finally he's with me, though I still have some doubt but I am trying to bring my full trust back for him.

I want to spend the rest of my life and be with Him that even death can't tear us apart. I enjoy every minute of the day I spent with him. I am so happy every time we're together. I love the Idea that we're inseparable and that we enjoy each others company. If he only knew how much He and this moment means to me and how long I've waited for him and his touch and if he only knew how happy he is making me cause I never thought that I would love anyone so much like I am loving him. I don't know what will happened to me if by chance that our fate decided to part our ways and let us take our separate path's on our own because with him I feel complete, with him everything seems to be just so right, with him my future seems so clear, with him it feels like finally I am home where I truly belong.


Honey co I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

di kapanipaniwala


OO na... In Love Na ako... magagawa ko? kala ko di ko na makakalimutan si Jeff tapos biglang pana ni kupido pucha aray! sakto! tumama! hahah! kamakailan lang natatandaan ko pa, Desyembre yun eh, magpapasko katext ko si mareng muging ng ganito:
marz: marz matatapos na naman ang taon wala pa tayong boylet... hahaha
ako: xete, wag mu na nga pinapaalala? mas malupet ako mag-bebente kwatro na loveless pa!

Kita mo nga naman noh? tapos kung babalikan mo yung mga blog ko nung December puro patungkol kay Jeff yun, yung pambihirang lalakeng ipinagkait sakin ng tadhana! haha! (mahal na mahal ko yun dati eh, isipin mo Siyam na taon na wala na akong binanggit na ibang pangalan kundi JEFF!?)

Tapos ng pagsapit ng bagong taon, di ko talaga akalain na magkakaganito ang buhay ko! (bawal mang magmura pero pambihira! SIYETe...) biglang gumulo ang mundo ko! na inlove ako eh! ang gulo talaga lalo na nung una, akalain mo naranasan kong lait-laitin ako, pambihira, makita ko ang mga itsura ng mga yun josko PATAWARIN kayo! oo di ako perpekto, tao lang... bakit ikaw perfect? (OO NA! MAGMAGANDA KAYO! SINALA KAYO SA BUNOT! PERO KUNG DI KO PA ALAM NA KUNG DI PA KAYO MAG-PONDS AT POWDER WITH MATCHING MAXI-PEEL DI PA KAYO DADANDA!... SIGE LAITIN NYO AKO! KALOKANG MGA ITO! mas madanda pa din ako sa inyo... P-E-R-I-O-D hehe)

pero ngayon, masayang masaya na ako... SUBRA! finally i'm with the man long i've been waiting for. i love my honey so much!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

When the Lion fell in love with the Lamb

I couldn't help but shiver! (in a good way) darn! my boyfriend is so so sweet! hahah! He made me feel so special, beautiful and loved... finally after three long mournful months I've already found my lullaby... my every sweet escape, my life. He's like a cadbury, I'm getting use to him. He's my morphine, my daily apathy. I met him as a stranger, a really strange stranger and I was right, indeed he was a serial stranger. He use to hurt and make me cry, though, he even use to make me smile. I was like a kid who's been run off with whirly pops and go tantrum then after wards this stranger bribe me with some butterfinger. I don't know how he knew that it was my favorite chocolate after cadbury but because I'm just a kid, a vulnerable fragile juvenile, I, accepted his bribe. I got use of his enticements, his sweet words, his believable promises... then when he thought that I was about to fall completely on his pit the world turned upside-down. The Lion began to tumble down my kind-of-sheep attitude. He got lost in my being benevolent and got avid about my lachrymose eyes. I knock him off of his feet and got swayed by my honeyed voice. I have persuaded the King and made the Lion fall in love with the Lamb, I made him fall in love with me. Now, I could not help but not believe , but I have to cause if I won't then who would? right? I love my beau so much... more than one could ever imagine, I completely prove myself wrong in terms of setting boundaries when it comes about this crazy thing called love, cause once I've set my standard and hemmed my self to things I thought I should only be doing. I Love You Honey, So much too.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

GOD SALAMAT PO

sa totoo lang dumadaan pa din ako up to now sa bagyo ng buhay ko. dumating sa point yung buhay ko na inakala ko na madali lang, pero mali ako dahil di kinaya ng utak ko ang mga biglaang pangyayari at nawindang ako. masakit para sa akin na maloko at saktan ng tao na mahal ko, mabuti na lang the table did turned around and i am somehow happy na ngayon. di ko alam, i mean alam ko na di dapat makipag relasyon ang kapwa Kristiano sa mga hindi Kristiano dahil nga may batas ang Dyos dito II Cor. 6:14. pero sa kabilang banda meron ding natala sa Biblia na maaari kang maging dahilan para makakilala sa dyos ang iyong kabiyak. sa ngayon ang alam ko lang may dahilan ang Dyos sa lahat ng mga bagay na nangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon dahil diko din lubos maisip kung paanong unting unti nyang inaayos ang mga gusot na dinaanan ko. sya na din mismo ang tumulong sa akin, bagamat sa ngayon magulo pa din ang mga bagay bagay pero alam ko magiging maayos din ang lahat. magiging masaya din kami ng tuluyan ng honey ko, liligaya na din ako at mawawala ng lahat ng alinlangan ko dahil alam ko di kami pababayaan ng Dyos, mabuti sya at di nya hahayaang mapahamak ang mga tao lalo na ang mga anak nya, lalo na ako, kami ng honey ko. mahal na mahal ko sya bagamat masakit at mapait ang pinagdaanan at naging simula namin pero umaasa ako sa tamamng panahon at malapit na yun, aayusin din ng Dyos ang lahat ng bagay at di na ako iiyak ulit ng dahil sa sama ng loob, sobra kong mahal si alvin pati buhay ko kaya kong ibigay, sana lang talagang mahal nya ako ng higit pa sa buhay nya tulad ng sinabi nya. Lord maraming maraming salamat po sa lahat at kayo po ang patuloy na manguna at maghari at gumabay sa relasyon namin ng honey ko. maraming maraming salamat po at binigay nyo sya sa akin, alam ko po may dahilan kayo sa lahat ng ito, God alam ko magiging maayos na ang lahat. thank you po. I LOVE YOU.

Monday, May 4, 2009

5 DAYS VACATION WITH MY HUBBY April 29- May 4 '09


5 HAPPIEST DAYS OF MY ENTIRE LIFE WITH THE MAN I TRULY LOVE


ako na yata ang isa sa pinakamasayang tao during this last 5 days! panu kasama ko lang naman ang nag-iisang at pinakamamahal kong tao... ang honey ko, ang lalakeng mapapangasawa ko.

pumayag ang nanay ko for the first time na magkasama kami ng honey ko pero yung nga lang sa tita ko sa pPangasinan pero ayos lang kasi napakasaya namin.
April 29- May 4 2009 wala kaming ginawa kundi mag- beach sa ibat ibang beach ng pangasina like binmaley beach at lingayen gulf at binmaley river tapos nagpunta pa kami ng honey ko sa baguio na kami lang dalawa.

napakasaya namin kahit na hindi namin kabisado yung place sa Baguio, kahit na nawawala at naliligaw at kung saan saang na kami nalusot at kahit naubos na ang pera namin sa taxi fair napakasaya pa din namin dahil isipin mo first date namin to na wala akong chaperon at nasa malayong lugar pa kami at dalawa lang kami!