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FIRST LOVE
by: joynlazaro

He Left. Actually I let him walk out the door. He had this barrel over his right shoulder while holding a chain on his left hand. seems like he can't take me anymore, The prima donna, the love of selfless maven.

I doubted on his capabilities
Now he's gone, I'm full of uncertainties
was I crazy?
have I become a burden that you just let freely?

hence, should I say end do justify means...that I have to face the consequences, which is YOU, though already free.

I'm on my knees
begging you to pull me here
help me be freed to this grudges
where they said I ought to be

If you really mean what you've said before that "love never changes but if it does then that is not love...it's lust" then get back to me, let's continue being crazy.

Let's not keep our Faith... Let's Spread it around

"Activating Faith during life's most troubled times"

joynlazaro

(What is the definition of Faith? Greek: "pistis". This word describes a strong deep rooted block--immovable--unshakable--upon which rests our belief, and from our belief we take action, (that is why "faith without works is dead"...works are faith in action!). in Encarta Dictionary it is a belief in, devotion to, or trust in somebody or something, especially without logical proof.)

The LOVE of the LORD is very visible especially to us CHRISTIANS. As we all know that God has sent his begotten son for our souls very salvation. During Christ time, I believe that he has taught the very single information on how to survive this world. He has taught us TO BELIEVE IN HIM SO WE"LL BE SAVE. What is it that is very complicated in that very simple phrase that people especially us Christians cannot understand? Do we just only believe GOD on times that He's been pouring blessings upon us? or during times that the water on the oceans are calm? there are many, uncountable Christians who keeps on complaining just like the Israelite during Moses times. Let us Check ourselves, Why do we keep on complaining and having doubt about everything yet we say we believe that there is GOD and that our GOD (who is the creator of heavens and the earth) is powerful that NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH HIM, that HE holds the whole universe and everything on it in the palm of his hand and yet we grumble? Do we still consider ourselves Faithful to the Lord then even without FAITH?

In Matthew 17: 20 when the Apostles asked Jesus why can't they drive the evil spirit out of the body of a possessed boy, Jesus said unto them " “Because of your lack of faith. I tell you with certainty, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you.Butthis kind does not come out except by prayer and fasting.” In here we can see that GOD is only asking for just a very little faith, another is in Mark 11: 22- 24 Jesus has told the Apostles that if they only have faith in HIM "For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, 'Be removed and be cast into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will come to pass, he will have whatever he says, Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." This illustrate vividly and memorably the unlimited power of God when working through men who believe and doubt not. In this verse we can contemplate that we can face and conquer great difficulties by just having "rooted-faith in God". So, how can we obtain this kind of strong "pistis" faith?

#1 We must come to Jesus!...get filled with the Holy spirit!

#2 Build our faith from the Word!...Romans 10:17 "So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God." When we have built this firm rooted "pistis" faith---then we must---

#3 Live by faith!.....Hebrews 10:38 "Now the just shall live by faith:..."We live by our relationship with Jesus, through prayer and by knowing Gods Word (the Holy Bible) We will now have a strong foundation to rest our belief on, and from which to take action!

Let us NOT GRIEVE, GRUMBLE, and COMPLAIN during the lowest point of our lives because it only make things WORSE. During difficult times for us to FORGET NOT of GOD'S favor, grace and mercy let us learn to count our BLESSINGS instead of our CROSSES. Don't you know that the phrase "FEAR NOT" is mentioned 365 times in the Bible? Just enough for our year survival that it was mentioned. Why murmur when we can count our blessings? Why worry when we can pray? We have everything we ever needed because we have GOD, hence, nothing can be against us (Rom. 8:23) and that GOD do answers our prayers (John 16:23) Let us not forget to not just have faith but let us put our Faith into action because Faith without work is dead (James 2:17) and Let's not just keep our Faith...Spread it.

All of us were going through hard times, Christian-Believers or Not, there are moments when our spirits are low. I think we all heard about the poem "Footprints in the Sand". This was written way back 1936. Mary Stevenson, the writer, for many years handwritten copies were distributed by herself to those who needed something to give them comfort at a low point in their lives. I believe this poem has touched many lives and continue touching and comforting people, I just hope as The Lord our Father God replied to the last verse of the poem "The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand, is when I carried you" made you realize that Faith is the spiritual ability to see what isn't, believe it to be, and trust God to do it in His way and time, remember that Faith is a supernatural act because Faith itself comes from GOD.

Praise the Lord! To GOD be the Glory!

So that in all things God may be praised
through Jesus Christ.
To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever.
Amen. (1 Peter 4:10-11)

Traysikel (manong sa Nueva Ecija po...)

ANG TRAYSIKEL... bow

Laki akong probinsya, diko yuon kinakahiya. Hindi tulad ng iba...nakatungtong lng ng MRT hindi na alam kung paanong pumara ng traysikel dito sa Nueva Ecija. natatandaan ko pa ng nag-ojt ako dyan sa isang Hotel sa Makati (HRM student pa lang ako nuon) may nabalitaan kami na nangyari sa isang kuya-kuyahan namin na nag-ojt din sa ka-Maynilaan. May naging costumers daw sila sa isang Restaurant sa Hotel na mga "OJT-NURSING STUDENTS" ... nagkakwentuhan ng konti, nagka-alaman silang pare-pareho palang pala silang mga estudyante, mga nag-O-OJT pare-pareho inshort. eka ng isang Nursing Student "Saang Eskwelahan kayo?" (ganyan ang tanong pero Ingles yun...tinagalog ko lang) pagkatapos magtanong idinugtong ang mamahaling eskwelahan ng mga Nursing Students... dun daw sila nag-aaral. "SA ABE INT'L SCHOOL KAMI" yaan naman ang sagot ni kuya sabay ngite... "ABE? San yun?" tanong ng isang estudyante... "Yun yung School na prinopromote ni Kristine Hermosa... Tanga!" wika naman ng kasama nitong barkada... "Ah...dun ba? diba wala daw PERMIT yung school na yun sabi sa balita sa DOS?!" ... pagmamagaling naman ng isa... "Yung ibang branch medyo may problema pero inaayos naman na, tulad sa amin sa NUEVA ECIJA" sagot naman ni kuya. Tapos bigla daw umentra yung isang babaeng Nursing Student ng makapanirang mood ng "NUEVA ECIJA?... SAN YUN?... SASAKAY KA BA NG BARKO TO GET THERE!?" ... natahimik ang lahat ng saglit... namumula na si kuya... pikon na siya sa kayabangan ng mga kausap niya... pero dahil customer is always right daw, timpi pa rin sya...kanina yun... but not this time, kaya sumagot na siya... pero mahinahon pa rin naman... sarcastic lang... "Ay hindi!?... sasakay ka ng kalabaw tapos tatawid ka ng pitong bundok tapos sasakay ka ng traysikel or jeep!" ... hanef...kapika... ano ba ito sa loob-loob ni kuya, tanga kaya talaga siya o nagtatangatangahan lang?... at pa-iigsiin ko na ang istorya... pero for sure mapipikon ka... "tiga saan ka ba miss?" yan ang tanong ni kuya... "tiga Bulacan ako" ... "ay!? Sh*@!... ka- bwiset lang" sa loob-loob ni kuya.... "kala ko matalino...boplaps pala, puro yabang lang!"

Confuzzled

To my realization...i was THEN confuzzled! (it's a combination of confused and puzzled j.s.y.k.) for the benefit of understanding of my readers, I haven't been having the easiest time lately or maybe because I wasn't able to get or have what I want... uhmm well i suppose GOD has been testing my oh-so-attitude or character. anyways, I so deserve it considering I was asking for much more longer P-A-T-I-E-N-C-E. I haven't been a good friend, sister, daughter, model, neighbor, listener, and Christ follower lately. I've been such a retard, well maybe not literally but you guest the term...yeah! EMOTIONALLY AS WELL AS MENTALLY OR PSYCHOLOGICALLY RETARDED. I think I've been a pain in my friends butt lately (esp. late last year) and also to my mom (sorry mother) God! I don't know what happened to me last year I was like a motionless apathetic retard! don't ask me why or like what happened cause I bet you wouldn't wanna hear for sure! (like it'll take forever!lol) but to like give you a rundown imma go rant you some:

a. I was crazy about this thing called love (EROS)

b. I've been coincidentally caught up between too many (cannot mention their names...they all have the same names btw)

c. I really wanted to quit cursing cause lately I've noticed that I've been cursing a lot! (GOD THIS ISN'T ME) i used to bless people yet on the same mouth I've been cursing people too... this isn't a work of a Christ-follower right? what is like so wrong with me?

d. I really wanna have a day or more of refreshments away home and from people i care the most? like self finding cause recently I've been attacked by boredom and crazy thoughts. (bad ones)

e. I really really wanna do something but basically i just can't because i chose not to because basically or maybe IT'S NOT TIME YET!

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How can MY life be so complicated but yet simple? how can one happening thing contradicts another or one way or the other? or was it only I that is making all this complications? because I know I do have a choice and yet i chose to complicate things and now here I am strangled on it! DARN!

Great thing GOD is like just right here besides me, he's never left me. how true is it that we fall short in so many ways that we lack of his glory and omens been wrapped on us instead? like I know... been there... done that! crazy huh? but that's the truth we're all gonna fall down if by chance we didn't manage to get things right or to think correct or get back on the right track!

We all have standards sets to ourselves and if by chance we manage not to meet those things we become upset, guys, it shouldn't be that way especially for the CHRISTIAN FREAK like me. let us not focus on wanting more for ourselves but let us want more of GOD instead, good thing I have planted a memory verse on my heart that keeps me on saying always that "GOD HAS A BETTER PLAN FOR ME THAN I HAVE FOR MYSELF" so true! proven too! (look for Jeremiah 29:11)

GUYS I HOPE MY SIMPLE BLOG HELPS YOU THINK THAT LIFE MAY BE FULL OF FRUSTRATIONS, CONFUSIONS, MIND BUGLING AND PUZZLING THOUGHTS AND FEELS LIKE THE BURDEN OF THE WHOLE UNIVERSE HAS BEEN THROWN ON YOU REMEMBER THAT WE HAVE A BIGGER GOD AND THAT HE HOLDS THIS UNIVERSE AND OUR LIFE IN A PALM OF HIS HANDS! YOU JUST GOT TO LEARN HOW TO DIAL JEREMIAH 33:3 AND YOU'LL COME TO REALIZATION ABOUT MATTHEW 11:30!

GOD BLESS YOU! REMEMBER IT MAY SOUND TOO CLICHE AND OH SO CHEESY FOR YOU BUT GOD LOVES YOU SO MUCH THAT HE BORES OUR SINS ON THE CROSS IN EXCHANGE OF HIS LIFE JUST FOR YOUR VERY SOUL! (John 3:16)

pachelbel's Canon in D major

Finally! I've found it! I've been hearing this song since a fetus (Lol) but when I heard this Classical song like almost 3 years ago back in Singapore I got struck by a lightning (well not literally) because i felt a sudden pinch in my heart i dunno why, since then i am asking every musicians whose into classical music if they know that song (and i would hum it to them) but they just though of it as Mozart's or Beethoven's but they were all wrong...dead wrong cause it was Johann Pachelbel's! I think This is one of the greatest hits in the classical world during Baroque Period....you guys should listen to t.

HOPE YOU'LL ENJOY....I CRY EVERY TIME I HEAR THIS, DUNNO WHY, I GUESS IT'S THE MUSIC SPEAKING TO MY HEART... THOUGH I DON'T KNOW WHAT LANGUAGE THEY'RE SPEAKING BUT I'LL SAY IT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH LOVE'S LANGUAGE... AWWWWWW!

Pachelbel's Canon In D Major (really Beautiful) - Pachelbel
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Missing Him

Missing him will always be my life's tragedy. There's this little space in me that's deceivingly small-looking; it looks tiny until you get inside. When you get in you'll see it's huge. Gargantuan. Colossal. That space is his. It will always be his.

HAPP NEW YEAR

WE HAD A BLAST. THIS YEAR START HAS BEEN FULL OF FUN... LAST CHRISTMAS IS LOVED TOO... HEHEHEH...HERE'S A GLIMPSE OF OUR NEW YEAR FIREWORKS DISPLAY CELEBRATION...ENJOY WATCHING....YEEHAH.