food of the God's

has anyone evr thought of ditching chocolates?
lol...omgosh...you guys are gay Lien!!!
chocolates....yummzzzz....want some please!!!

TRUE LOVE

I AM NOT A GOOD POET
BUT A GOOD ONE MIGHT READ IT

REALITY

Questions and Queries were often encountered
But my Question would be,is it Answered?
People may doubt and seldom encountered
The answers to their mourns and prayers

They say ask,seek,call and somebody may answer
Because God is Alive and He may hear you clear
Just wait for a Little or maybe for longer
God is good He's just testing your temper

No one has seen God and keep him intact
But who knows if He exist?that's another fact
Though I do believe and put my faith in him
With all do respect my hearts worship him

Now I proved that all my life his with me
And in all my burden He sets me Free
The answers to my questions too has been revealed
The only thing that's left unanswered is if this is real.

28 things most girls dont know

Guys hate sluts even though
they
have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if
you've slept with more than 6
guys..you're a HOE)

--Guys may be flirting around all day
but before they go to sleep, they
always think about the girl they truly
care about.

--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

--Guys will do anything just to get
you to notice him

--Guys hate it when you talk about
your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.

--Boyfriends need to be reassured
often that they're still loved.

--Don't talk about your guy friends to
your boyfriend.

--Guys get jealous easily.

--Guys are more emotional than they'd
like people to think.

--Giving a guy a hanging message
like "You know
what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make
him jump to a conclusion that is far
from what you are thinking. And he'll
assume he did something wrong and
he'll obsess about it trying to figure
it out.

--Guys are good flatterers when
courting but they usually stammer when
they talk to a girl they really like.

--A usual act that proves that the guy
likes you is when he teases you.

--Guys love you more than you love
them if they are serious in your
relationships.

--Guys think WAY too much. One small
thing a girl does, even if she doesn't
notice it can make the guy think about
it for hours, trying to figure out
what it meant.

--Guys seek for advice from girls not
other guys. Because most guys think
alike, so if one guy's confused, then
we're all confused.

--When a guy asks you to leave him
alone, he's just actually
saying, "Please come and listen to me."

--If a guy starts to talk seriously,
listen to him. It doesn't happen that
often, so when it does, you know
something's up.

--If your best guy friend seems to
avoid you or is never around when
you're with your boyfriend, he's
probably jealous and likes you.

--When a guy tells you that you are
beautiful, don't say you aren't. It
makes them want to stop telling you
because they don't want you to
disagree with them.

--When a guy looks at you for longer
than a second, he's definitely
thinking something.

--Guys don't like girls who punch
harder than they do.

--A guy has more problems than you can
see with your naked eyes.

--Don't be a snob. Guys can be
intimidated and give up easily.

--Guys talk about girls more than
girls talk about guys.

--Guys hate rejection, but they hate
being led on even more.

--If you are going to reject a guy,
just do it. Don't say they are like a
brother or just good friends, it just
hurts even more. Tell them that you
aren't interested in a relationship
and they will respect you.

--Guys really think that girls are
strange and have unpredictable
decisions and are MAD confusing but
somehow are drawn even more to them.

--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and
health just to be with you, he really
likes you and wants to be with you as
much as possible.

---Girls, if u don't repost this
within 1 hr then you will lose the guy
of your life

---Guys if you don't repost this in
one hr then you will lose the girl of
your life.

STOOPID ACT CAUGHT ON THE PHONE...LOL

A girl quickly punches a number into
her phone and waits until she hears
the other line pick up.

“Becky, I don’t know what to do, I
really don’t. I love him so much and I
don’t think he thinks of me that way.
I mean, whenever I see him or think of
him, I can’t help it, this smile comes
across my face. Sometimes he sees me
smiling and smiles back. That’s when
my knees turn to jello and I get
butterflies in my stomach. I know you
think that he’s is so totally adorable
and cute, but if you look past that
and actually listen to what he has to
say, you find a totally different
person. He’s so caring and considerate
and he makes me feel like I don’t
deserve him. Well, actually, I don’t
deserve him. He’s too perfect, I mean,
look at all the girls that fall over
for him. I could never be one of
those. Their all so pretty and bubbly
and….. not me. I couldn’t even start
to compare myself to them. But
whenever I think of him or see him, I
can’t help it, I smile. Now I didn’t
tell you this but he called me the
other day about homework. I tell you
now, I made a complete fool of myself.
I’m so embarrassed. I stuttered the
whole time, but he was so sweet and
just kept talking and making me feel
better. He’s so perfect Becky, I don’t
deserve him, so why do I keep wishing
and praying that he will notice me,
why?............Becky? Becky are you
there?”

“This isn’t Becky.”

Petrified the girl asks, “Then who is
this?”

“ This is the guy who’s smile turns
your knees to jello and I just wanted
to say one thing. Everything you just
said now, I’ve been wanting to say
since the day I met you.”

TEENAGE GHETTO

TEENAGE GHETTO
(A short story)
joynlazaro
1/28-29/07 11:00pm-1:00am
1/30/08 2:00- 3:30 pm

Demeanor! That's one of your problems Susan.

Trust me Rita; I don't care of what people may think of me!

I didn't raise you to think like that.

But you did raise me to think like them and more likely to think like you! I'm already 20 years old; I don't think I'll be facing more rude things than being treated like this!

I just want you to be safe.

Safe? You know Rita being safe is different from being caged; more likely safe is being in heaven while cage is living on hell.

Rita walked away as fast as she can and slam her door on Susan's face. Reluctant and scared.

(Kringgg...)Six o'clock alarm

Damn! Why do I need to work!?

Susan I got to get going, I made you some breakfast and coffee

Don't you know how to knock!?

Come on, I don't have time for this; I won't be able to pick you up on school later so you need to be home by sevn!

I am not a kid anymore Rita. I know what to do and I can handle myself.

I love you too honey.

(OH! I hate it overtime she do that!) Susan murmured.

Susan grew up in a upscale suburbia sprawl across the rolling hills of northern New Jersey, stretching as far as 70 miles from New York City, though known as one of the wealthiest suburbs in America opposite of it is Susan's. Susan grew up together with his mum and dad. It was until her parents divorced which took its toll on her. She loves her family and always wanted to have her family back like fourteen years ago. But she failed as her dad married her step-mum and her mom keeps on committing adultery.

Over speeding her bike towards Zhang Xuemei's Convenient store before she ran out so late, screeching sound of the break makes her stoop as she reaches out for the land.

I know I'm late. I'm sorry Mr. Zhang

You can't always do this Sue; you know how busy Sunday morning is. If you don't want to work anymore just quit or better else quit now!

Good morning too Mr. Zhang, I promise it won't happen again.

You go to work now, and don't pile the boxes high over five again!

Susan is a sweet lady, she just want to retaliate against her mom and dad for she always wanted to have a Family, to have a Mum and Dad she can call her own, though it's so hard for her to treat her mother like that, that's all she can think of in order for her parents to talk. She never calls her mother mom or her father dad since eight, she just calls them by their name.

Rita I'm home already.

Are you here?

Sue. (From a voice of a man)

Without hesitation she looks behind her knowing that voice she can't be wrong that it’s the voice of her dad Pierre.

Dad? I mean Pierre? What are you doing here?

Don't I deserve some welcoming Sue?

Are you kidding me? Of course! (She grabs her dad's hand and throws herself into his fathers’ side and tap the shoulder of a Forty-Seven year old man.) What’s up Pierre? Wow! It’s like two years since you give me a call, how's life going?

I'm sorry if I wasn't able to give you a call, because I thought you never wanted to talk to me anymore.

Don’t sweat; you know how I hate drama! (She answered immediate as if she doesn’t want to hear her father's next word again)

Of course you don’t, how silly of me. (Pierre change his look as he realize he’s about to cry)

So what brings you here? Have you talked to Rita already? (Gazing on her watch)

Yeah, this morning I called her and asked if I can come by and she agreed and said good cause she’ll be coming home late and...

(amazed as she looks like, Sue cut the next word of Pierre) we’ll I just got home and I don’t have anything to offer to you so just suit yourself, there’s some spuds left in fridge and uhhh some lazy macaroni, oven it and there you go, I am still full, I just had my ice cream on my way home so I’ll be fine until then.

Oh! Is that so? Well thank you but I brought us some pepperoni pizza and your favorite nacho flavored cheese don’t you wanna grab some while we’re having some chat? A tattle maybe? What can you say?

Uhhh sure, sure, I’m still not sleepy plus I don’t wanna be rude on you, just so you know.

So how you’ve been? I know its lame but how’s life been going to you and your mom?

Well nothing has changed. Well maybe did something but turned out to be worse so uhhh me and Rita keeps on arguing, I stopped going to school ‘cause Rita can’t support me anymore, education turns out to be expensive nowadays and I can’t afford to slack anymore so I already have a job two blocks away, I’m working so hard so I won’t be a pain in Rita’s ass anymore as she always cry.

That’s a lot, I am sorry our family didn’t worked out quiet well.

Oh my dear Pierre, that’s so sweet of you (Sue utter sarcastically) I know you guys have been busy cheating on each other since I was born and I know you guys didn’t even sweat to like fixed your mistakes and try to put all the blame to each other and you didn’t even think of my future. The future of your own child! Killing’ me every time I am trying to figure out what went wrong and only to find out that you guys are so pathetic! Sorry, but truth hurts!

Pierre stood so numb, He can’t speak a word because he knows that Sue is telling the truth, He soon realizes that he’s already crying.

I’ve never been a good Father, Husband and I’ve never been a human, I know that, forgive me Sue, I am still your father am I? So please forgive me. I know how hard things has been for you...

What do you think what I’m doing? I am trying to convince my self to agree with what both of you are saying, the only thing I can’t understand is did you guys ever loved each other? I just can’t see how two in-love people would turn out to be irate with each other concerning that you have a child. Can’t any of you show any meekness and eat your ego instead knowing that we guys are family and supposed family should bond together? What has happened to both of your sanity that you Pierre as I can remember even showing me your girl friend, trying to convince me that Lauren is my mother? And Rita even encouraged me to get mad at you? Didn’t it ever occur to you that one day I will hate you for what you have costs me? I was just a child? Don’t I deserve to be happy in such early age I have to travel from one City to another because both of you are pulling a restraining order on each other every time one of you has to pay me a visit? Does it ever occur to you that at least I have to go to the park once or twice a week? You know what? I really don’t wanna throw sentiments on my life because you know how I hate drama but you once again pull and trigger my silence. (She soon realizes that her eyes were already releasing warm fluid, and found herself thumping her father’s trunk)

As Sue cries her lungs out her father grabs and holds her close, both didn’t realize that all the while Rita has been listening to their daughter-to-father dialogue, soon Rita enters and conveys as well.

Never been a good mother and wife either. I’m sorry, I lack to a lot of things and I refuse corrections, I instead let my ego eat me and now it’s pay back time. I can’t blame you Sue for hating me so much, you have all the rights but I wanna say thank you also for you never let me down, though you always think that I disagree with you but you’re wrong, I trust in your judgment cause I know though your father and I haven’t been a good foundation for you but yet you always pull things together, you don’t know how proud I am, I may not be gaudy but I am so proud of you!(Rita tries to hold back but fails to do so, instead she cries and enfold Sue) I am so sorry.

Mom, Dad; the truth is, I really can’t get mad to both of you, ‘cause I know Life has it’s purpose and I dun wanna correct mistakes with another mistakes, I dun wanna put all the blame to you or to dad, you guys chose to be like this and commit mistakes but I’m so glad now that I have you both back, all I’m asking is a family, which I never had. And now that I have you here I won’t let go of you both anymore, let’s try to build a family of our own.

Sue cries and hold tight to her mum, she then felt a relief after long fourteen years, she now at least has something to look on her past, a fifteen second memory of a family she hasn’t felt for so long. She then felt liberation from painful past, from rage and from misery.

Life sometimes has to be harsh for our foundation to be deeper... Life isn’t offered in a silver platter; no body said it’ll be easy; but no matter how hard life may seems it won’t be that tough if you have someone to lean on, a family or friend maybe. Definitely your past will determine your future not unless you chose to be better then future will repay you…though things really are destined for us still we need to make choices no matter what choice we’ll be making we have to face a certain consequences, don’t be afraid, in life you need to do things that get you outside your comfort zone, if you don't then you'll never know. Sometimes we even stop ourselves from doing things that we want to do, even when you win or loose not knowing would be the biggest lost.

Sleep with the angels by Sue Arens

My mother was a very intelligent, funand giving person. I was juststarting to realise all the things Imissed out on with my mom because ofthe lifestyle I had. I am 32 yearsold and never took the time to get toknow my mom. When I became a teenageris when life with "family" meantnothing to me, until now.I always seemed to take the wrongpathways, my friends were all eitheron drugs or selling and making them.This at that time was more important.I couldn't even take care of my sonbecause I was too young (all of 16when I had him) and didn't want tomake the sacrifice. So my mom tookcare of him, and I gave herguardianship. I did love him very muchand felt so lucky that my mom waswilling to help.From then on it got worse.I moved away from home with myboyfriend, got married, went to jailand even sold, used, and cooked drugs(methamphetamine). My house was raideda few times, I lost everything that Iowned, had another son, and so muchmore.I guess it was around 1992 when Imoved to Arizona with my husband. Thiswas after our youngest son was takenaway from us by DPSS and he went toprison for two years. We wanted tostart a new life. This was an ongoingbattle from court to court trying toregain custody of our son.We went to counselling and parentingclasses as well as had supervisedvisitation for about three years.Finally we were able to get him back.After the long process our marriagewas pretty much over. We didn't reallyspend any time together, we livedtogether but I think it was justsomething that either one of us wantedto face.Here it is now October of 1995, Icalled my mom in California (it hadbeen a couple months since I talked toher last) she told me that she wassick with cancer and asked if couldplease come home to help out.My father is an engineer for UnionPacific Railroad and is away from homedays at a time. So I quit my job,cashed my check, packed my car andleft. My husband was at work and Ididn't even tell him I was going. Ithought maybe it would be best if Ijust went and called him when I gotthere.When I got there it was not what Iexpected. I knew my mom was sick, butI guess I didn't want to believe itwas something so serious. So I dideverything possible for my mom. Idrove her to and from chemotherapywhen my dad was unable too. If sheneeded anything I tried to get it. Buther health was getting worse.She seemed to get sicker each day; thedoctors could not pinpoint the originof the cancer so they did not knowwhat to treat it as. They ruled outovarian cancer (as well as removed theovaries). Any female organs that couldbe removed were. So my mother wentthrough several different types ofchemotherapy and had undergonenumerous surgeries. At one point theythought that she was going to be ok.This was when she decided to go backto work full time and started lookingand feeling better.My parents both worked for therailroad and they were offeredpositions up north, they decided toaccept. So they bought a brand newhome outside Sacramento and moved.This was early 1999. They had onlybeen there about a month when Momstarted feeling bad again. Sure enoughthe cancer was back and worse thanbefore.The doctors said there were masseseverywhere, the disease was rapidlyprogressing. She had more surgeriesand more complications. Then she gotan infection, which caused what theycall a "fistula", this was a holewhere her belly button was. Thedoctors could not close this hole andit was eating away at her skin.Eventually she was told her intestinesweren't working, the upper ones justquit and she did not have enough lowerones. Then it got to the point whereMom could never eat or drink again.They put her on a TPN, which was an IVthat was all nutrients and vitamins tokeep her going.I went to visit in April of 2001. Itwas then my mother told me she wasgoing to die and they didn't expecther to make it through the nextChristmas. This was something I neverexpected to hear and I immediatelybroke down.The entire week I was there I wasnumb. I was using every preciousminute with my mom. We had never spentany time together because of me. Thisis one of the most beautiful memoriesI have, and I would have more goodmemories had I tried years ago to be apart of the family. The one week weactually were mother and daughter.When I returned home I talked to mymom's almost daily. Either we wouldtake turns calling or we would talk onthe Internet. Then she was in and outof the hospital for pain reduction;even then not a day went by that Ididn't tell her how much I loved her.Then was told by my doctor that I havebreast cancer. I let my parents know,and started chemo. I didn't know muchat this point except that there weretwo masses in my right breast.About four months later on October 3,2001 when I got the most terrifyingphone call from my dad. He said tome: "Mom's health has taken a turn forthe worse, if you want to spend timewith her or see her while she is stillalive, you had better make it quick."I hung the phone up and just droppedto the floor.I took a flight the very next morning.I arrived in Sacramento and wentstraight to the hospital. I walked into my mom's room. Here she is layingthere looking so weak. When I took herhand and gave her a kiss she turnedher head to me. With a smile Momopened her eyes and said to me: "Ilove you, promise me you will nevergive up fighting the cancer."I just nodded my head. The tears werenon-stop. I was so frightened but knewit had to be.After that my mom never spoke toanyone again, nor did she ever openher eyes again. For the next threedays we watched her laying there, eyesshut but there were tears running downher face. Her doctor came in on thesecond day and told us that itwouldn't be long.I knew and had accepted the fact thatmy mother is laying here in front ofme taking her last breaths of air. Ikept telling her "Mom let go". Icouldn't stand to see her in painanymore. My whole family told her "weare going to be ok, please let go".This was the hardest thing for anyoneof us to do.On October 6, 2001, my mom took herlast breath.All I could think of was all thethings I never got to say or do withmy mother. I was sitting there stillholding her hand with visions of mylife without my mom. We were finallystarting to become close. It had onlybeen about the last five years or sothat we actually got to know eachother as friends, as mother anddaughter.This awful tragedy also made me learnsome valuable lessons. Life is tooshort, family is so very important.You just never know if there is goingto be a tomorrow.There is not a day that goes by that Idon't think of my mom. I see her in mydreams and each night I talk to her. Ipray that this never happens with mychildren. My oldest son is like mybest friend. I make sure to tell themevery day "I love you".I know that my mom is no longer inpain or suffering. She is in a betterplace where there is no pain orsickness.Each time I look up into the sky andsee a star flicker I think it is mymom letting me know she is watchingover me.I sometimes feel as if she is herewith me, walking me through my cancerholding my hand. Even though I knowshe is gone, I also know she is my ownpersonal angel.This is dedicated to the memory of myloving mother Susan L. Conklin,January 5, 1946 - October 6, 2001.

cliché

cliché

overused expression; a phrase or word that has lost its original effectiveness or power from overuse

EXAMPLES ARE:

i love you

i miss you

take care

see you soon

no goodbyes

Thank you

you're welcome

like i was

oh really?

me too

what's up?

oh my God!

no way!

shut up!

ay kalabaw!

kabayo ka!

at madami png iba....wahahhhaha

i less than three you from me and their lyrics

who among us doesn't dream?

who among us doesn't want to live free of pain?

who among us doesn't feel isolated?

you? me? he? she? or we?

did you ever loved somebody?

so much that the earth moved?

have you ever loved somebody?

even though he/she hurts you?

who among us don't feel wrath?

who among us don't feel betrayed?

who among us don't frown?

who among us don't mourn when the sunny sky is filled with rain?

Seven years you assured me

That i'd be fine if i complied

Only push the way off to fight you

off my chest The story ends

have you felt like cheated?

have you felt almost robbed?

have you been disgusted?

have you felt stabbed from the crowd?

Sometimes I wonder how I'd ever make it through,

Through this world without having you

I just wouldn't have a clue

Cause sometimes it seems like this world's closing in on me and there's no way of breaking free

at times i wished i wasn't form

or worse i wasn't even born

but through and through my lowest and soars

i just look at you and feel luckier once more

january 2, 2008

haiz....ala lng..parang dumaan lng ung buong araw!ang bilis....hehehhe...uhmmm anu bng ginawa ko...ah nagluto...nanuod buong araw nahiga...natulog...naglinis...nabadtrip....kumanta....eje

picture ko oh...parang tanga! di pako naliligo nyan...haizzz...wahah ang ginaw kaya...xempLe magpapakulo pako ng tubig! hmfpT!

january 91, 2008

this'll serve as my diary...ahemmm..here it goes...lol...1.2.....3.........HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

hi guys i love you all muahhhhhhhhh....malungkot ako kagabi not until 15min. b4 new year....lumabas kami,,saya ang daming paputok...tapos 2am n kami natulog...i woke up 8am taz 2pm nagpunta kami sa patay (apo ni madam molina) wawa aman...peo GOD HAS A BETTER PLSN FOR US THAN WE HAVE FOR OURSELVES! GOD BLESS THIS YEAR FOR US....thanx po...dumating na pala si pastor (dec.31'07) dito naman natulog ptra.suzie...happy! god bless you all ulit...si manong lambert galing dito,sana mabenta na lupa niya ng magkapera na! in jesus name!

maurice original

a pure physco an absolute mixture of emotion that is kept inside and is rarely expressed to other people... picked upon every and then by people who are just either jealous or anyoned by his presence so to all of those people .... live with it cuz there's no other choice....:) his love is a curse his affection (proven by experience and case studies in the field)turns into abstinence and the somehow the object of his affection (that's a female if you inquire) disappears and avoids him better yet ignores him and in turn his heart was broken beyond the point of being whole but his ability to love is still present but is affected by this unfortunate events and is still circling his mind up to now ... he is now under the process of rebuilding the damage that inflicted by years of regret and heartache...