sasper the homosexual ghost

men this is freaking funny. you should watch this

http://myspacetv.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=18576307

<3 aww!

i am who they made me to be

no shit no turds no guarantee

i can be whom you wanted to bejust call,

be there,when i'm free

fuck all the bullshits fuck off you wannabees

you can't beat me never but i'll beat you, you'll see

fuck off!just piss off untiL i hold no grudge

fuck you all slithers you aint got no fudge

you dickheads and jackass where labels as morons

you emo's and goths peace y'all got nothing to do this

this is me! if you can't handle

then i'm too hot for you baby!

once again

i wanted to have the best story IF I FALL IN LOVE.. that's so annoying...everyone is dreaming of a life that is happilly ever after but what is the truth is there such or no such thing? cau'se the truth is everytime we try to perfect things chaos arises just like in every relationship right? that's the reality but there is something we can do...that is keep on loving the person no matter what his/her weaknesses could be, because love isn't about just happiness it's also about madness, sacrifices and frustration cause in everything their should be fairness like parellelism. i'm not saying that we have to do wrong things what i'm trying to tell is life isn't perfect but it is heading towards perfection so don't give up to anything so fast like the world that keeps on turning and water that keeps on flowing..forever isn't not a word but place so when you say forever mean it...be there..saying i love you should be life changing.. so if i fall in love i want it to perfect.

kissed in the rain

one sunday morning i was on my way to the church when an unfamiliar men around his 30 years suddenly excused himself to asked me a very significant question,what kind of romantic scene would you wanted to experienced mam?what said i, i'm sorry let me introduced myself first, i'm Kirk, i always see you walking here, i can see in your face that very strong dream, why would you give me a wish?nope he said then what did you asked again?i said, then he answered what kind of romantic scene would you want to experience?then i pause and answered..."maybe i wanted to be kissed in te rain by the person whom i truly love among the mob".he's shocked, then replied, what if there's this man whom you don't like at all would wanted to kiss you?i was shocked too..then i followed uhmmm, i dunno..why is that?then finaly a tear fell on his cheeks while saying...CAN I?
(shox...dat was absurd)
i dunno..why

speak

A burrow of growing sorrow, and itjust won't go away, it feels like it'sgoing to drive me mad and insane, andthe stupid thing is they can't stopit, can't help it, it's telling themto give up and lose hope, to allreaders out there someone just help'emplease. their life is getting moremiserable everyday, they feel solonely inside and outside. they'restarting to loose the will to live andfind eternal peace. sometimes theydream of ending it all by terminatingtheir very pitiful little life, theyfeel so very empty, with no one tohold on to. I'm secretly hoping forsomeone who has the strength, and willto help me pull'em up from much ownedhole of sadness. coz they feel likethey have no pride anymore, feels likean empty shell waiting to be crushedinto pieces. they wanted to breakdownbut still holding on a single thread,and hope someone throws'em down a ropeto give them some hope.lets help them,lets hear'em out!

this is me

good in noting ... can't make a men laugh or cry...can't know wat's men thinking and dunno how to reach their heart...maybe everything is just simple yet too hard for me to understand..maybe i'll just mess up pplS life..so i guess the best is just stay away from their life and wish them happy always..everybody have their own story to write bout...i did had one...after i started,i dunno how to end it...i ain't wanna stop my story there but i have to...but i guess it will be alright...there will be another person to continue my story...
arghhh...i dunno wat i'm talking bout... but now i just need sombody to care and love me... will tat be posible ?

speak

A burrow of growing sorrow, and itjust won't go away, it feels like it's going to drive me mad and insane, and the stupid thing is they can't stop it, can't help it, it's telling them to give up and lose hope, to all readers out there someone just help 'em please. their life is getting more miserable everyday, they feel so lonely inside and outside. they're starting to loose the will to live and find eternal peace. sometimes they dream of ending it all by terminating their very pitiful little life, they feel so very empty, with no one to hold on to. I'm secretly hoping for someone who has the strength, and will to help me pull 'em up from much owned hole of sadness. coz they feel like they have no pride anymore, feels like an empty shell waiting to be crushed into pieces. they wanted to break down but still holding on a single thread,and hope someone throws 'em down a rope to give them some hope. lets help them,lets hear'em out!

so-called-life

Life is all about learning to survive, carry on in a sense of knowing which way to go, in a path thast leads us day-by-day in a different and unfamiliar faces which helps us concludes of things that are not yet seen, things that are rarely proved and things that hasn't happened yet that bring us to strange places. We are indeed similar in a way tht we run our so-called-life. like a piece of cake that persuades us to finish it htough we know it's made of ingredients that is not helpful for our body. we say that honesty is the best policy but the truth is lies conserves us, it protects us...it is the only thing that best describe our privacy as secret. it shields us like life, we deal with it or not shelter it or trash, we hold it in our hands. The only thing that brings people together is not music but life and death. Grotesque people even offer their life to spirits in exchange to what they known as liberty, for they refer death as the escape to life's brutal reality. The perfection and imperfection often provides us additional knowledge for the tranquility we've been looking for to escape this world of paranoia and the manica of it. we never wanted things to take its toll on us. i remmeber a man quoted "YOUR PAST DOES NOT DETERMINE YOUR FUTURE". sir, i beg to disagree, cause we hold and journey to this fate of life and whichever path we take it'll leads us to the next place, we are afraid of our ghost. it's the reason why we are hiding from it, that is why we are so disdain of it, cause the truth is we never wanted our past hounting us.

The Secret Promise

There was once a story of love, a kind of love that never was. It all started in a dream, a kind of which no one else's have. I often encourage myself to love one way or another but I'm so afraid that i'll be living in my past while he's over it. i had this most memorable story wherein it almost took me eight years before i have totaly moved on. I really fall for Him and he's my first. right then and there i promise myself that i will never fall in love again after the incident, not even in the near future. so it happened. I became very focused on my career which became my life and i was and never aware that in my life's peakest part i'll be encountering onother frustration, i have to keep it by myself so no one will know, it is such a burden to keep a load of secret ionside you but i have to, cause the safest place to hide your secret is within you. Burrying sorrows, fear, dreams, memories of your own is the hardest part but i realy intended to keep ot to my grave. It's not that I don't trust people, well i gave them the benefit of the doubt, it's just that I think it would be so very unfair to let others know your secrets when they have their own to keep, you'll never know when someone spill out yours. like love i didn't know how it strikes me when i know that i have my heart guarded, indeed fate is mysterious so as i thought I know my stand, i have been hit by cupid's arrow. The first time I saww him there's no goosebumps or butterfly on stomachs or palpitations, the most crucial part is when i know i has fallen for him. I don't know. maybe it's just me whose having this brutal feeling, I don't want to rush into these though I realy want to spoil myself. By the way he has no idea of this. Everyone has their secrets and dreams, lucky for those who has theirs fulfilled. I almost forgotten to breathe for the last eight years. and now all of the sudden I am Breathing...once more. My hopes and Ideas yet again came into life. Truly when you're trying to reach for people that's when you can't get in touch with 'em, maybe we weren't meant for each other or maybe fate doesn't agree on it's timing or God maybe testing my temper or rather He only gave me an inspiration to see and experience the beauty of love once more. I know, someday, somehow I'll be over this, but as soon as end comes nearer I'll be holding to my faith, cause I won't let me see this love slips away and end in somebody else's arms. I promise, as long as I can, I'll keep you mine.

~joyenz~